arrgghhh...too angry!

had been chatting wif ren min on msn just...as usual abt club thingy...for me it's e same old problem la...i'm v worried abt the sub-comms having belonging towards Bizen, their own club anot...i thgt they didnt...i'm very worried...they aren't proud of their own club rite? but ren min told me..maybe it's just only ur admin side ba? cos logistic was fine...den i said..ya lor...but do u all really have a sense of belonging towards bizen? i mean other than admin...to the logistic ppl...say e truth! i really need the truth! if it's just ke tao hua...forget it...save it for urself...really pls tell me e truth!

cos i thgt orientation n etc this thingy came at e wrong time whr we aren't tt prepared n experience...we were not given the enough experience n resources to make this thing better...it's fine for the bizen workshop...untill this event came....and this event i thgt will really leave a very bad impression for the sub-comms...rite? it's not we didnt want to make this event turn out happening n memorable for e'one of us....we did try..but can u guys see it?

can u guys see the hard work n effort? the amt of time we spent to prepare this, the amt of stress we had, the duration of the stressing time, the amt of conflicts cause by this stupid idiotid event! did u guys see tt? did u guys feel our hardwork and we're really trying v hard....but i tink in e end it fail for my admin part...all this doesn't turn out as wat we expected n wanted! we also didnt want all these to happen...it's not up to our control...or maybe it is but there's little we can do if there are so much limitations to restrict us!!!

i felt so helpless...i donno wat can be done to improve all these...i want the sense of belonging in them but wat can we do? things always doesn't turn out wat u expected...haiz...

this is quite a big event for us...for us, most of the newbies facing all these organising major stuff...i'm v piss off by the management..how can they be so daring to allow all the newbies to handle these tyoe of thingy...we needed more experienced aid...the staff given to help us were also new, we're also new...they're throwing us into the dead sea lor! we're trying hard to help improve n make this club more recognise...but in e end...we're like making it worst....i donno if the management is being irresponsible or wat... @#$^*& really v angry la!

so wat others will think by looking just at the surface? they donno abt ur internal affairs...they wun know wat's ur ku zhong...they donno wat problem u're facing...and they can just judge and comment e'tin by looking at the surface...haiz...wat can it be done? nth cos this worls works like this...there's no fairness in this world...if there is...den it isn't a world...u're living in ur own dream world then!

y e'one must cos of this, almost fell out wif each other? y la? y cant e'one just close one eye, open one eye...accomodate n compromise to get things done? y? y cant e'one just put down wateva biasness they had towards each other n work together happily to achieve tt common goal...since all of us had tt common goal tt we wants to achieve...then y cant we get it done? y must we have so many conflicts n arguments, whr e'body got unhappy n became not truthful towards each other n things doesn't get done n got worst instead!!! u all v happy huh to see each other die...ok den argue more...be more calculative...treat each other as worst as u can be to them...let them die...in books, we learnt conflicts is a never avoidable thing...thrg conflicts and tense moments, ppl will get bonder n become more unstding of each other...it's all lies in the books! wat the @#%&*^% they're teaching us! all rubbish...all garbage from the bin! ya i'm v agitated n extremely pissed now!

what the hell is this kind of world with all kinds of stupid contridicting @#$%!&^ complicated ppl living together and had so much trouble trying to live with each other...if u doesn't want the world to live harmoniously, den forget abt having or creating this world in e first place!!! y must make the ppl living in this world to be so stressful and get unhappy over such things?

!@#$%^&*

**ok ppl above are all me this siao wan trying to fa xie only....but part of it is really the truth tt i'm talking abt...don get the wrong idea in case more conflicts happen...dots...get too emo at this time...**

but sub-comms i really need u ppl de truth n feelings!!!