i'm still feeling guilty! )'=

to clear some misunderstanding where my room mate had for my previous entry (yes we are room mates only!)...i'm just worried for my project cos i've to handle everything myself! WA KALIMAS?! UNDERSTOOD?! haha...

today a busy busy day for me till i don have time to visit toilet cos i'll alwyas go toilet if got nth to do...i can go toilet to just wash my hands and look at the mirror..haha..but today i don even have the time to go take out my small eyore mirror to look at myself...haha..yes i'm vain and very particular about my image..hahaha...had been busy since morning till late afternoon....because the colleague whom i suppose to help her to do the things...did not give me clear instructions....dots....but she is still thankful for my effort la...haha...(=

we are having a week holiday in october because it's china's national day...and we are planning to go Beijing with Litong(our colleague)...his room mate who is also our colleagus is gg back hometown to visit his parents...so Litong will be alone and he thgt of joining us during the holiday...so we all together had come up with the idea of visiting Beijing...haha..he can be our tour guide...and maybe his father might sponsor us our accomodation! hehe..

YEAH 37 MORE DAYS!!!

today's lunch topic was about grandparents....after hearing so much about Jasmine and Qian Yu's storied and complaints about their grandparents....i realise and confirm again that i'm really fortuante to have such good grandparents...who aren't as difficult to handle as Jasmine's and Qian Yu's.....and i did not treasure them alot and i did not realise it till this sadded incident occurs....hais...i'm really so foolish and 活在福中不知福.........i took every happiness i had previously for granted...really i am really...hais...why? so that is the punishment?! )'=

images and memories and almost all the moments i had with you flash in my mind while on the bus.....i promise myself not to cry but i still cannot hold on to the droplets of tears...ahhhhhhhhhh....i donno what i want...crying doesn't help....nothing i can do to help her! i had never thought i would meet this kind of problem in my life......i really take happiness i had with family for granted......i thought i treasure my family bondness more than anyone....i do not dread visiting my grandparents house every weekend..i did not see it as a waste of time and in fact i enjoy visiting them...one weekend of not seeing them makes me miss them alot....

i thought all these shows and prove how much i treasure them..but now it tells me and make me realise and know that in fact i had not treasure them alot.............))'=

*i'm still feeling so guilty for my actions...hais...)'= miracles please!!! am still praying very hard! how your voice sounds like?! i've forgotten already...only some vague impression...AHHHHH...! ))'=*