religious issue

this afternoon i attended a funeral of my cousin's grandpa..which is my uncle's father my aunt's father-in-law...haha..ok tt's not e main purpose of mentioning this event....this funeral...hmmm let me think quite alot....btw religious stuff....ok let me make it clear tt in this entry i don mean to offend any religion...just smthg for e'one to discuss n think abt....i might be bias in this entry.....so unstd...

in this family....out of 5 siblings....3 are christians.....they believed in jesus wan...den e other 2 whr my uncle is one of them believe in god....more to taoist....take joss stick wan...haha..ok..den is like..wen having all sorts of neccessary traditional ceremony e 3 christians siblings are not involve in it...they didnt joined in....cos i tink we believed e neccessary ceremonies are like meant to like.....let e....izzit e word dead? i tink so..ok it's to like let e dead to have a peaceful journey on their way to donno whr or wat de....den i'm like thinking y they didnt join in....ok it's cos of religious...whr they are not suppose to do all tt...or they don believe in all these?

they don take or burn joss stick too....burning joss stick is like a form of paying respect to e dead...i mean wat will happen to them if they take or burn joss stick? is a crime? or a sin? this is one doubt of mine....and in chinese funerals e relatives or descendants had to wear a small cloth at e sleeve of their shirt....in chinese is dai siao.....diff colours represents diff meaning as in generation or position or bei fen of tt person in e family....like....they're not part of e dead's family like tt....i mean to me i tink got abit of disrespect...cos tt's their father a close kin of theirs?

before we set off to e crematorium to burn e body....it's another tradition tt we had to walk following behind e van tt transport e coffin for a certain distance like maybe to e big road or whr....smthg like accompany or sending e dead off.....den we can get up bus to go to e crematorium....before we started walking i saw smthg quite annoys me....e youngest daughter of e dead is a mute...she has a husband...they're christians....and den this daughter of e dead wanted to follow my uncle they all walk behind 'pushing' e van till e big road....but i saw her husband like somehow call her don do tt...or no need do tt like tt de action...den i'm like...wtf...luckily this daughter didnt do wat her husband wants......i'm like...how can tt husband like tt lor....haiz.......after attending this funeral i realise being e eldest child is not fun n simple after all...cos my uncle who's e eldest had to handle e'tin......

on e way back from crematorium i also found out smthg....on e expressway...weneva they see a bridge...they have to say like:_______(e dead) cross e bridge....smthg like telling them tt there's a bridge ahead....i oso donno wat's e purpose of doing this...my mum oso donno....haha...den i thgt of smthg v stupid.....cos they had to keep repeating weneva they see a bridge......den it's like it's on e expressway leh....there sure alot of overhead bridges....den like...haha....had to say so many times....so as in these case....building so many bridges do have disadvantages de....hahaha...ok...i zip + sew my mouth! opps!

y cant ppl cmpromise n accomdate wif each other leh? y must draw such a clear line btw certain things....ok la...e'one has diff belief....cos a previous funeral is not as peaceful as this...i mean i consider this funeral is like...ok e family members didnt cos of diff religious belief had any unhappiness.....

however my own uncle's funeral had quite an unhappy one....he's my father's biggest brother....he had 2 son n 1 daughter....my cousins...not v close...is like those once in a yr oni...i mean every year we met oni like during CNY for once...or sometimes even none in a yr.....but wen young still quite close.....aiya it's always like tt one...wen e'one grow up.....e r/s just becomes bland? or not tt close anymore....

my aunt his wife.....is a christian and had 'pulled' all e children into christians wif her leaving none for my uncle....e couple almost divorce cos of this...i mean cos of religious belief.....cos it's like....she didnt leave at least one of e children to have e same belief as him.....like he also have a share of e children too wat....i mean they are his children too! worst is....my ah em (how i address my uncle's wife) didnt even ask or discuss wif my dad and ah ma they all if e funeral shld be held a christian or a taoist wan...by right shld be taoist wan cos tt's my uncle's religious belief....den she made e decision herself by having a christian style of funeral.....

even worst is.....wen my uncle had a sudden heart attack....and had to be sent to hospital....she didnt call an ambulance instead took a cab to send him to hospital...nvm...den wen in hospital liao.....she didnt contact my dad my another 2 uncle and my ah ma abt it! she oni inform them wen he's already announced dead....wen e'tin abt e funeral style n stuffs were set.....my dad was like v angry...but he cant do nth and to avoid mre troubles he didnt want to make it big....

haiz....i noe not all christians are like wat i see....so i can't make any judgement abt them here....but tt's reali sad...during e few days of funeral....e kids like....they don't seem sad and can even laugh n tok to their frens....ok i noe i cant expect them to like keep crying n shld have a positive attitude....but i don notice any slight of sadness in them...maybe they have is just tt i didn't notice...on e last day whr e body had to be sent to e crematorium....e youngest kid did not attend! he's not there to even send his father's last journey! he didnt even spent e last moment wif his father.....it's like...i'm so disappointed in my cousins......

my ah ma is e most poor thing......she's old....can do nth to help her son...she must have felt v helpless.....she's of course extremely upset.....den got this time whr she wanted to go toilet so i fu her to e toilet....den wen she came out of e toilet she saw her old fren....den she cried walking to her fren there.....den i see her cry till v jialatt...den my heart like oso...my nose turn....and tears started falling down my cheeks....v auto....it's reali heart-breaking to see her like tt.....v xin suan....haiz.....too emotion? cos i'm actually not tt close wif my uncle...but his death will actually make me feel tt sad tt i'll actually cry.....cos i thgt i wun cry.....every now n then weneva thgt of this i'll wan to cry....my dad oso....weneva he mention abt his bro's death to his frens or whoeva...his eyes will turn red....i see tt.....haiz....

recently more n more abt religious belief issue appear on e news n movie so i had thgt of all this n decided to blog this entry...or shld i say...more n lots of questioning on christianity stuff....eg. e lastest HITO movie....DA VINCI CODE....den there had always been war or strikes on different religious belief de.....e terrorist issue....in other countries oso....riots btw races due to religious issue....ok la actually nth in particular la.....heee...tml study engineering accounts...today finished OB le....got some qn must rmb to ask felicia....ok nitex ppl! (=