m00d-swinging

feeling quite sad now..)= y? i shldn't say it out here...i choose to keep things to myself..and let it ou wen i feel comfortable wif it...)=

was msn-ing wif sandy and we chatted abt the times wen we were freshies again! we miss AY 05/06 FOC!!! haiz...lao le lao le..old liao...i miss the previous FOC cos of the indecisive-ness i had as in to go for interview anot...so this period of interview is here again now! so i don wanna to regret again...but i've considered alot of factors again which cause me to become indecisive again! worried alot...e cheers are quite rusty in my mind le after losing contact wif it for almost a yr! i have to call sandy to help me recall back..lol...even reciting the cheer to urself will make u miss FOC and get 'high' urself! amazing rite...ya FOC is really tt fun n amazing n memorable....

i think most of my campmates aren't joining this time round de FOC cos they did for the previous and might felt it's enough? i mean i donno they might cos of some reasons they aren't joining anymore?? cos i heard most of my campates aren't joining this yr's FOC....got this feeling like...this time round, joining FOC are all the yr1 all e freshies...how how? not cos they're yr 1 and i'm yr 2...is cos i thgt e freshies all have tt 'status' there....i mean..they're dao? zi yi wei shi? not tt friendly? but i don mean all k!

i've become more kia c la...worry so many unnecessary stuff...old le old le..haha...cos if it's last time...i mean last last sem or wen i'm still freshie...i will still consider all kinds of factors, i'll still go ahead however of any worries..such as no frens to accompany me n all....cos i'll think tt i'll make frens there...but now donno y....become so kia c! haiz....maybe cos i'm getting more afraid of finding no belonging in any thing or place...or afraid of e loneliness more n more...y am i feeling like this? weird...and i don really like it...told u i'm mood-swinging le...i cue u guys in e previous entry le k! =/

*PS: sorry if this entry is abit of emo-ing....