i'm afraid...i'm scare...i worry....i fear...

i got woken up by a nighmare....the silly me feel very sad and worried that the nightmare might come true....the whole nightmare does not seems very real because there are inclusion of some kuku nonsensical parts...but i'm worried that some of the part will come true...know what i 'm trying to say?

sometimes part of the dreams do come true but some dreams are just dreams....now i donno which part is true and i hope everything is just nightmare...i wan to believe my brother for telling me that it's just dream and believe that he is right to scold me stupid and silly....

but i scare if i believe him, the opposite will happen...it's always like this...the reality always does not turn out the way you wan it to be....and i'm afraid it just turn out the opposite of what i believe and hope....but if i believe the nightmare....i'm again worried it will really happen! ..... hais....it's contridicting but tt's how i feel..... i only know i cry non-stop in the dream....i woke up crying too...i feel so lost and i hug as tight as i can to my that small bolster..... dots.....

i'm just scare...i'm afraid....i fear....i worry.....i have no courage to face whatever might be happening....