Past Weeks Updates II

Ok so where I have been to for the past weeks? It's almost a month since I've last blog huh? Haha..Well something happen and pause my blogging...In addition there aren't much to update either...other than rushing projects daily and nightly!! Finally, lots of projects presentation and report 'dead'lines ended the week before CNY....timing is so right isn't it? Haha....Annnd so I'm damn free and relax after this Friday's Ccom interview....to be exact I've been so relax and have been going out everyday since last last tues! WAHAHA…lalala..aiya don be envious of us, year 3 la..everyone’s turn will be here sooooooooooon...don worry it's very soooon..just a blink of your own eyes...it's just only a few seconds, so fast that i haven been enjoying my year3 life, so fast can...till we all have no time to prepare for CNY and don even feel the atmosphere at all..fast till I didn't realize I'll be becoming an adult soon!! Urgh..haha..


26th January, Saturday-
Anyway few weeks back, it had been an emo one for me...i've finish reading “Ps, I Love You” that book....ok it was really quite nice..maybe cos I could relate to the story easily..it's so seldom I get so engrossed in a story book can! Haha....ok...

A big conclusion I got...

No matter what happens in life, however bad you percieved it as, earth don't stop rotating for you, time continue to pass, days continue to count, Life just continues~ It's all part of life, that's Life~ ha-ha

Humans have got a lot to learn in life.....Hence, I thought I have seen a lot of things through and I'm quite happy and really I feel so comfortable and glad that I've seen things through...so that's about it....


27th January, Sunday-
Accompanied mindy to Sheraton hotel for SIA interview...mindy's dream came true, she managed to get into the finals and now preparing to be an air stewardess....haha...ok while waiting for her outside the interview room....suddenly get emo, maybe because my mind is too quiet and free from a lot of thoughts and feelings....i guess it's also because I'm still quite affected by the book and another issue..So at that moment, I feel so appreciate all that I had or even those that I ONCE had.....i have got that urge to just Thanks all my friends....tho they might not known when's my down period, weirdly, they'll still be there for me at the right time no matter what...I need not find them but they will be and are there waiting for me...haha...weird isn't it? I really feel so fortunate to have them around me..no consoling words are needed, it's just their accompanies and their presences....it's enough....it's enough to make me feel any better...haha..and Felicia just happened to be sms-ing me...so I just thanked her....really Felicia..thank you....

Lol...she's so surprise to know that I do have my emo times! haha..because it's always she and her 'cancers' partners emo-ing nightly! Hahaha..however in the end I still didn't manage to send thanks to all...so THANKS all for being with me all these while...


Ha..i think actually quite a lot have happen huh....Another realization, if you've decided to consider someone to be your friend, you'll try to accept whoever he or she is...we just wun abandon him or her no matter what...everyone do have emotions and tempers..it only matters you can tahan till what kind of extend…haha....I think some knows what I'm talking about..anyway it just if you have decided to regard one as your friend, you'll be with them no matter what happens..aiya..i think my point is:
There is always a choice in everything, there is no one who can force you in anything!! There's a choice in everything la...


28th January,Monday-
Rushed to school early in the mrgn to meet the 8.30am 'dead'line for the SupplyChainManagement report with Felicia..luckily her dad lobang us there..and I forget to take my proposal with me! arrgh! Cos it got to attach with the report -.-...meet peizhen and mindy, we had breakfast at bedok 600+ wet market..had my fav missed kway chap! Haha...yummy! Mindy's treat, all happy eating and chit-chatting....while I'm in my own world, observing the people, the environment around me....everyone looks so familiar to me...the whole environment is so familiar and this really makes me feel so comfortable and at ease...I feel like I'm at home and I just fell into my own comfortable zone can...

Hmmm..where is ah por huh? Must be somewhere around marketing..maybe later I'll go walk around to look for her.....ha-ha-ha...some 'devil' just came in and break my thoughts! She's in hospital!! She's not here!! It's no longer the same now!! she couldn't walk or talk anymore!! It's a year already! It's been a year since we last heard her voice! at that moment, I'm really upset and devastated..i can only sighs non-stop..i can only feel it's wasteful...it's so ke xi..out of no where, I just pop out the question asking....sometimes in life, you'll feel ke xi..but other than feeling ke xi, what can you do? You know..ke xi...hais...haha..of course they don get what I mean! From my own comfortable zone returning to the scary cruel reality world!!

I tried...I tried to speaking out, wanting to let them know how sad I am...but I just couldn't do it because I'll break down whenever I try to speak further..i don't want...I don't want to spoil everyone's mood and scare them with my sudden emotions..that whole place...everywhere, every corner...full of memories, everything happens there...i was really in my own world....really trying very hard to hide the sadness....putting up a front face the whole day...was it fun? Was it okay? No it's not okay at all...all I do is to hide in blanket and cry w/o letting anyone to find out..it's so foolish and silly of me for crying over this issue for so many thousands times..

So I tried....i cried and cried and cried....i wanted so much to tell my parents about my childish thinking about this issue and hopefully they could enlighten me...But I still didn't do it.....i went to bed and cry....ha-ha-ha...=\ and also donno why my sister that day so just nice, goes to bed early too...I couldn't take it and just tried telling her what happen in the day and all my thoughts...haha..and I made her cry with me too! Lol...you see, if I were to tell everyone about it, I will only make them cry and worry with me...so why should I make them be like that with me? So I always choose to cry it out myself silently...hide it all inside....ha...

Ha~ In the end, I didn't really think things through...the conclusion I got is all what I know, I understand it but I couldn't learn and accept it!

Somewhere in my heart, there is still the hate, the revenge, the hurt, the deep cut, the thousands of regrets, guilty and ke xi!!!!!!!!!!

What can I do? Life~ha~