self-reflections..

Saturday:

Woke up at late mrgn…helped mum to clean hse…went maple clinic to see doctor on my face…waited for almost 3hrs before it’s my turn! Damn long….so many ppl and each patient consultation time can take up to 10mins each…dots…wait till v tired…paid $96.50 consultation and medication by nets and my mum’s $52 cream also…EXPENSIVE!

I really have to say…guys always only look for you when they needed your help! Cos while waiting for my turn in the clinic…I received chun wai’s sms…felt weird and surprise…cos he doesn’t sms me nor will he reply my sms…so I open the sms…and the content is…hey do you wan pineapple tarts? ….DOTS! cos he’s currently helping ppl to sell pineapple tarts….气死人! Angry lor! Haha..So I just replied no to him…lying that nobody in my hse eats pineapple tarts…actually got ppl eat la...but the thgt of my grandma’s situation, this year like no CNY celebration nor atmosphere also…so I thgt there isn’t a need to buy pineapple tarts…

Guys always look for you when they need you…otherwise…where the hell are they at? They might not even think of you right!?
When you needed them, where have he gone to? 当你需要他时,他都死到哪里去了呢?
So disappointing to see this happening….真是太令人失望了!

Sandy maybe that’s why I keep telling you I wldn’t accept or will want him anymore…cos I don feel the importance of me in him and cant feel that he has real feelings for me…feel like I’m just some kind of replacement or wat ba…like just to kill his time like that….already don wanna to pin any more hopes on him anymore…cindy this is also to you…so unstd?

When they’re into you…you’ll get to see them and receive as much concern as they have for you…but when it’s over or they have another target….ha…ha…ha…ppl where are they man!? Hahaha…less contact…can’t they still be friends with the gal? I mean why cant they treat the gal like his other gal friends? Why must like no contact or like giving the feeling that they just simply wants to lose contact with you and have nth to do with you anymore? Haha…weird right…got abit too much right? But that’s how this thingy works though it’s a bad way of handling it….and the truth is the world is never fair to anyone….)=

I have decided not to join AR due to some personal reason and the thgt that I can have more time for other activities…
I’m petty in certain thing….trying hard to forget and forgive….

I think my character is getting worst…petty, small heart, bad attitude, impulsive, mean mouth, calculative etc….