3 months: my tears will never stop flowing for you....!

Dated: 01/04/2007, 3 months...

she vomited and trying all her strength that she have to vomit out the phlegm....and i can see the vein on her forehead protruding out which might burst any moment....i can see blood rushing up to her head making her face all red....i can see her tears flowing....

i can do nth to lessen the suffers she is having...i can only wipe her tears for her while my tears just drop the moment seeing her vein protruding out...my heart breaks and the small little pieces sunk all the way right to the bottom again and again.......... )'=






what is life?
what is to be destined?
what you mean by fate?

i seriously cannot accept anybody saying whatever had happened had happened all this are destined and fate...what you mean? so i've to accept whatever it is now? tt's so unfair and where's justice?!!!

thinking so much doesn't help nor not thinking much does help in any way!

why are you that cruel to take smthg, which we had taken forgranted and never thgt it as the most precious, away from all of us? you are just jealous of how we are enjoying the accompany of each other right? if that's not the case and you meant everything was destined and was fate and you mean we have to ACCEPT it?!!! you can change this fact right?

i felt really so real true stupid this time round in my 18yrs of life....i simply can't unstd these kind of 'simple' little things about life....i'm damn slow and retarted in learning to ACCEPT, FORGIVE and FORGET!!! it's all simple english term that i've learnt long ago in my 18 yrs of education...i thought i unstd and knew what was it all this while till this year 2nd January 2007......

i want to hug you MA....
i want to hold you cross the road with me again.....
i want to protect you from all the nasty careless ridiculous blind drivers.......
i very much want to hold your hand again...
i want you to call my name again......
i want to eat all your homecooked food again.....
i want to return to pri 6 after psle times where outside was raining cats and dogs and was cold while i felt so warm in your house eating your food..........
i want to hear your laughter, see your smiles because of our jokes....
i want to hear you praising how nice i look in my new dress and all....
i want to see you walking up and down the house.....



my tears will never stop flowing for you......!
i just misses everything of you and the every moment i had with you!