irresponsible of me!

it's very irresponsible of me to not attend elf...even though i've alr reached sch....i just went hm....i donno....i donno if i'm just using the excuse of worryign for my grandma so i didnt want to attend elf and don want to....i know i'm just giving myself excuse....i've the choice to go elf but i choose not to...i didnt know why la....getting too emo....gan qing yong shi.....tt's so attitude! )=

visiting her ltr and gg to send vivi n kimbee off to cambodia for OSIP....they'll be back in 2mths ltr....and felicia and i are still not in shanghai....hais...

what's becoming of me? what's happening? i only know i'm still unable to accept this fact....i.....really....she is leaving us very soon and i cant bear to let her go....)'=