i know what is meaning of SOON!!!

this mrgn at ard 1am++....i'm not asleep and this thought and feeling suddenly rush into my mind! now i understand what is 快要走了!!! MONDAY i'm leaving!!! still got 6 more days only? wa...FAST!!!

i haven really started packing my bag...

i didnt really SERIOUSLY go and think what to bring to there...it's all briefly, agar agar think only!

i don't know how much clothings to bring there!

how to pack my shoes?!

need to bring how many pairs of shoes there?!

do i need this? do i need that?

where to keep the money???!!!

i haven buy my facial stuffs! my mum don wan let me buy mask cos it's ex!

i haven buy my contact lenses solutions!

which bag shld i bring with me?

need bring how many leh? cos i don want ltr at there, i want to use this bag and it's in singapore!

when shld i start packing my bag? friday? saturday(i'll be outside whole day!)? sunday(i don't want to spend my 'last day' packing bag!!!)?

haha...suddenly feel so insecured and scare scare! i'll not be seeing my family members for like almost 5 months leh!!! leh!!!! aiyo....although i'll be very looking forward to the kind of life where 5 months not seeing ur parents ur friends and everybody close to u de! i'm really looking forward to it but still got abit of scare...haha...

past few days when out with felicia, i still keep telling her i don't feel anything leh...as in the day is coming very soon...i don't feel that rush and worry! i'm like very calm and all...WA...ytd night i feel all the rush and scary feeling!!! dots...how ar? feeling so insecured...the day i'm looking forward to is coming!!! suddenly feel that this week is passing so fast!!!

ok see ar my this week de schedule:

wednesday
-mrgn go clubroom and get the right sleeping bag back for my auntie! dots -.-!
-afternooon to get my hair trimmed
-evening meet sandy's mum for dinner with BWP but i also have to go somewhere else...most prob will forgo the dinner and join them ltr...

thursday
-bringin my little cousins to national library
-gg bugis cos my sister wants to
-gg daiso to get my cousins' screen protector! basically it's a cousin day out with me! ((=
-visit grandma!

friday
-no plans...
-maybe meeting rangers in school cos they've things for us!
-feel like meeting sinyee and cindy and chunwai and daniel or meet ronald and gang for movie or wat...but i think most prob also will not meet any of them la in the end!

saturday
-BWP's day out...

sunday (my 'LAST DAY')
-whole day for my family and grandma!!!

ahhhhhh....aiyo...weird weird wan leh the feeling...isn't this what i want? i want to have a life w/o mother naggings and i'm getting it in 6 days....but i'm sure on the phone she'll still NAG as much as she can! diao....i wanted to have a feel and experience of not having my parents ard for 24 hrs for 5 months...and it's coming real soon in 6 days too! i've been looking forward to it....but...but...now it's just feeling so weird...i donno how to describe it....got abit of 不舍又有很多点的期待...feeling scared and worring too...feeling excited and nervous.....a mixture of feelings!!! but i know i'm still looking forward to the life with myself alone there! i want to try the independent free de life!!! all by myself....i know there's felicia with me....wahaha...

you know ppl are fan jian wan right?! ok maybe it's only me...i like those very long time you didnt see or with them de feeling...and u'll start ot know what is miss and what is xiang nian but of course it's those happy de la...and only then u'll know what is precious and appreciate.....and tt feeling is great when u're back with them once again after so long!

like that time during the period of school holidays...it's always and everyday school, campings, friends and only go back hm to sleep and get out the next mrgn de days.....it's fun! i'm LOVING it!!! haha...ok i'm in my own world!!!!

but hor...i don't have tt i miss hm and wants to stay at hm e'day de leh...whenever i can be putside i'll drag as late as possible to go hm! donno why i don't wanna go hm....

haha...i'm a WERID girl!!!! ((=