Feeling so insecure: THANKS felicia!!!

that's bottles we bought from Jack Hut...a bubble tea shop...very nice..and i bought my own horoscope and felicia is trying to collect all horoscope bottles! ya she is crazy! LOL...

Monday night

i'm feeling really insecure, lost and depress in the middle of the night.....i was listening to felicia's weekends encounter while with her parents.....

and finally i broke down when felicia tried to find out why am i feeling this way.....it's so embarrassing to cry that badly in front of her...luckily it's in the dark...haha..i did not tell her everything but bits and pieces....

i know i'm being stubborn and still wants to let this nightmare, this bloody accident to bother and affect my emotions that alot....hais...whenever i thought of the positive side, there will be another side of me making me to think of the bad and evil side....and i will fall deep into it and cry......after the accident, for the first time i admit and see myself as such a big cry baby.....

i need few days to make me come over it...i need a busy life to keep myself occupy....i know it is a kind of avoidance....i donno when then i can get over all these...but anyway THANKS felicia for ytd's night and today's entertainment...before i had did thought of whatever you had said....but it's always the other side of me pulling me down.....

i can sense that you are trying to entertain and make me happy this whole day....or did i think too much? haha..anyway i appreciate it....she had been YO-ing to me the whole day and trying to make me follow after her..haha..but i didnt...sorry~...cos i don feel like YO-ing!

now it's all just myself that i need to overcome...........=/

THANKS FELICIA!!!

(since i'm not your best friend, so you aren't mine too!) haha...