late for school again...

i'm late for school again today! cause felicia to be late with me also...den she's angry with me...haha...

so reach mushroom at ard 9.10, saw sandy ren min vanessa n pei qi...so went to the lect together...we all got the same cds...their lect room is a tutorial room lor...so squeezy...e lesson was boring...my nose is like block...falling sick i tink...

aft cds, we had 2 hrs break, sandy felicia n i meet piwen go itas eat breaklunch...laugh alot...talk alot...felicia n i got separated from sandy n pi wen to go for lect....the lesson was not bad...at least i'm listening...aft this break again..haha...felicia n me slack at concourse level...went back to lect again...i did pay attention to the lecture...i unstd the lect...haha..next is lab...it ended in less than 30mins! haha...so today i went hm early!!! hehe..cook for my siblings to eat...cos parents not in singapore...fell asleep while watching disc..haha...donno y wen i'm sleeping..there's alot of interruptions wan leh...ltr is sms ltr is calls...-.-"

tml is a long day but a slacking wan? have to help mend the director's cup stall form 1-2pm...aft tt is cds tutorial....haha...yea..it's a slacking day! hehe...and ya i confirm with e2 tt i'm willing to pay $1500 to go to japan, kumamoto to find the jap buddies!!! haha...

felicia i'll sleep early today and try to wake up n meet u on time tml mrgn!!! haha..sorry ar for this 2 days...hee...(=

arrgghhh...too angry!

had been chatting wif ren min on msn just...as usual abt club thingy...for me it's e same old problem la...i'm v worried abt the sub-comms having belonging towards Bizen, their own club anot...i thgt they didnt...i'm very worried...they aren't proud of their own club rite? but ren min told me..maybe it's just only ur admin side ba? cos logistic was fine...den i said..ya lor...but do u all really have a sense of belonging towards bizen? i mean other than admin...to the logistic ppl...say e truth! i really need the truth! if it's just ke tao hua...forget it...save it for urself...really pls tell me e truth!

cos i thgt orientation n etc this thingy came at e wrong time whr we aren't tt prepared n experience...we were not given the enough experience n resources to make this thing better...it's fine for the bizen workshop...untill this event came....and this event i thgt will really leave a very bad impression for the sub-comms...rite? it's not we didnt want to make this event turn out happening n memorable for e'one of us....we did try..but can u guys see it?

can u guys see the hard work n effort? the amt of time we spent to prepare this, the amt of stress we had, the duration of the stressing time, the amt of conflicts cause by this stupid idiotid event! did u guys see tt? did u guys feel our hardwork and we're really trying v hard....but i tink in e end it fail for my admin part...all this doesn't turn out as wat we expected n wanted! we also didnt want all these to happen...it's not up to our control...or maybe it is but there's little we can do if there are so much limitations to restrict us!!!

i felt so helpless...i donno wat can be done to improve all these...i want the sense of belonging in them but wat can we do? things always doesn't turn out wat u expected...haiz...

this is quite a big event for us...for us, most of the newbies facing all these organising major stuff...i'm v piss off by the management..how can they be so daring to allow all the newbies to handle these tyoe of thingy...we needed more experienced aid...the staff given to help us were also new, we're also new...they're throwing us into the dead sea lor! we're trying hard to help improve n make this club more recognise...but in e end...we're like making it worst....i donno if the management is being irresponsible or wat... @#$^*& really v angry la!

so wat others will think by looking just at the surface? they donno abt ur internal affairs...they wun know wat's ur ku zhong...they donno wat problem u're facing...and they can just judge and comment e'tin by looking at the surface...haiz...wat can it be done? nth cos this worls works like this...there's no fairness in this world...if there is...den it isn't a world...u're living in ur own dream world then!

y e'one must cos of this, almost fell out wif each other? y la? y cant e'one just close one eye, open one eye...accomodate n compromise to get things done? y? y cant e'one just put down wateva biasness they had towards each other n work together happily to achieve tt common goal...since all of us had tt common goal tt we wants to achieve...then y cant we get it done? y must we have so many conflicts n arguments, whr e'body got unhappy n became not truthful towards each other n things doesn't get done n got worst instead!!! u all v happy huh to see each other die...ok den argue more...be more calculative...treat each other as worst as u can be to them...let them die...in books, we learnt conflicts is a never avoidable thing...thrg conflicts and tense moments, ppl will get bonder n become more unstding of each other...it's all lies in the books! wat the @#%&*^% they're teaching us! all rubbish...all garbage from the bin! ya i'm v agitated n extremely pissed now!

what the hell is this kind of world with all kinds of stupid contridicting @#$%!&^ complicated ppl living together and had so much trouble trying to live with each other...if u doesn't want the world to live harmoniously, den forget abt having or creating this world in e first place!!! y must make the ppl living in this world to be so stressful and get unhappy over such things?

!@#$%^&*

**ok ppl above are all me this siao wan trying to fa xie only....but part of it is really the truth tt i'm talking abt...don get the wrong idea in case more conflicts happen...dots...get too emo at this time...**

but sub-comms i really need u ppl de truth n feelings!!!

directors' cup meeting

today's school is maa-maa (so-so)...early mrgn had the GUAN AH HOON's lesson..first time having her tutorial...wa her voice damn irritating n will cause someone to get frustrated easily..i HATE her voice n VOLUME!!! she talk damn loud la..got so irritated by her VOICE n VOLUME!!! her voice is still in high pitch de some more and talk talk halfway will go off tune...zhao sia wan...lol..had her lect...bored to the max lor...aft tt went for lunch at bizpark and had liew ky's lect...boring n i wanted to fell asleep..but luckily got mindy n felicia to crap with! wahaha...damn funny la...followed aft this is yeo tc's lect and lab! yeah, he's funny...had so much fun in his lect...lab was fast..cos materials needed to do the lad sheet is not printed out yet...lol...so we ended school at ard 3.30? haha...1 1/2 hr earlier than the actual ending time...

went CS to look for sandy...saw chun wai n daniel...didnt had e chance to say hi to chun wai cos he's talking on the phone wif a v stress n serious expression...scary..it's always tt face whr i don dare to get near him..donno wta's on his mind weneva this kind of expression appear on his face...it's scary n it's not approaching...he has alot of problems? wat is he stressing abt? haiz..

went back to school for directors' cup meeting...meeting was a mess...e'tin is not in clear instructions...but luckily e'tin is clear at e end of the meeting...but it's kind of rushing last minute work for e'one...slack ard e2..actually wanted to meet sin yee but in e end i didnt...and went dinner wif e2...idiot tt ben! make me do smthg which makes me feel i'm the stupidest person on e world att tt moment!!! wa...damn angry la!!! arrrrgggghhhh! si ah ben!!!

orientation

hmm maybe i shld blog smthg abt orientation? haha..ps la my mind process slower..now den thgt of smthg which i can blog abt orientation...

still...always...smthg which i like most abt camps....are....MASS DANCE & CHICKY DANCE & TP SONG!!! wahaha...tt's always n will always be my favourite event in all camps!!! cos of FOC!!! it reminds me alot of FOC...haha..the first day whr we taught the freshies the dance, my partner is alvin's classmate...a malay guy...damn crazy la he, alvin n farhan...sandy n i were so pai seh standing in front of them as they were our dance partner...haha..so feel like changing dance partner..he keep calling me darling..-.-" haha...

but in e end we all still had fun!!! hehe...at the turning part, my dance partner (sorry ar i forgot his name) turn damn fast n it's dizzy! i fell onto the floor aft turning wif him....hahahaha...i had so much fun dancing wif him...after tt dance, my whole face were as red as monkey's butt la..haha...

on the last day, halloween night..we had the MASS DANCE again!! haha..this time include the CHICKY DANCE and TP SONG!!! hehe...this time my dance partner is alvin san! haha...cos he's just rite in front of me so i grab his hand n dance wif him...haha...as soon as i heard the start of MASS DANCE song, i get extremely excited! so i dance wif him...sandy n her jian ge is beside us...and lex, winna, pi wen and max...omg his turning also damn power...haha...wa very scary..but it's FUN! hehe...aft mass dance it's CHICKY DANCE...omg all the FOC feelings n image just flash back!!! lol...followed by TP SONG aft chicy dance! haha... 1,2,3,4! temasek's me temasek's you, we're a team.....haha...damn fun...and we went one big round to shake hands wif the freshies..lol...

really this is smthg worth mentioning abt the camp...haha...

*i miss 05/06 FOC again! haha..(=

29/10 at work..

29/10/2006

today at work is quite fun...i'm in quite a good mood for no reason...haha..but tt's good isn't it? worked wif cindy n eileen..chatted alot..bth eileen n cindy...wa..both hor can be the BHB queens! haha...today sales exceed $1000..alot rite..but i made little of it only..haha..cindy did alot! i meet felicia to talk aft work...slack at mac till ard 12.30...reach hm, wash up, upload JSXP pics onto friendster and now chatting on msn...
working on thursday, saturday n sunday...
oh ya...tml having meeting wif esc n e2 on directors' cup thingy at 6pm..
meeting sin yee in e late evening to go see jiu wang ye..hehe...so long didnt meet her..haha..

my parents are at bangkok...)= i cant go cos of sch! wasted!!! but i've more freedom w/o them! haha..oh ya today at work...i realise there's alot of couples ard la...kan le jiu tao yan...haha..jk...ya i'm jealous..haha..ya i e'day at work donno is observe passerby or do sales..haha...today also don have shuai ge...i told my friend, shuai ge don come to suntec..lol...but alot of tai tai k! haha...

at work..

28/10/2006

today's time indeed pass quite fast! yeah..haha...but i only made 2 sales while eileen make more than 10 sales? haha...shi rui made 1 or 2..lol..rest of the time wen there's no customers..i will be either sitting down or standing up observing those ppl walking past HUSK...haha...go this ang moh lady walk pass me while i'm day dreaming...she said hello n smile at me....den of course i smile back but do i know her? she's too friendly le ba? haha...or maybe i did serve her before? haha..

ya while on my way to work on the train, i saw two family of malays chatting with each other like as if they knew each other long ago...like some kind of family or friends...ya they're strangers to each other....but they can just chatted so happily just like this...y can't chinese do tt? always with tt dao n selfish attitude to treat strangers...chinese shld really be ashamed of themselves...

what are youngsters these days thinking? i saw two young gals i tink ard sec2 or 3...wear till very g0k (g0thic)..haha...really gok la...but i donno how to describe..hahaha...i find tt guys are becoming shorter n shorter...i mean they got the looks but they're not tall enough..haha...lack of nutrient? haha...really...or maybe is cos we gals to big size la? ok it's me only..haha..

oh ya got this mid-age ah pek...wa he wore a racing shirt...which don suits him totally and he destroyed tt shirt! he wore it with a milky coloured bermudas and a obiang black pouch ard his waist!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh....so er la....really poi huai! tt shirt is shota bought at bugis tt day de...he n ying jian wear till so suit n nice...but this guy really destroyed the shirt's....he still walk pass me twice!

tt red shirt ying jian is wearing in the pic whr tt ah pek poi huai by wearing it tuck into his bermudas with e black obiang pouch ard his waist!!!

no shuai ge..haha..saw superband milo peng e members...oh ya i saw felicia's ZHI CAI ge! wahaha...he tried to smile at me but i look away and at as if i donno him...wahahaha...bad hor..haha..by e way, he's getting fatter...nt as fit as sem 1.1..haha..lol...

suddenly i thgt of my wishlist..cos like got so many things i want to buy! haha..so there it goes...

• a pair of covered toes flat shoes..
• a pair of slip-on sandles..
• a pair of wedges..
• off shoulder de shirt
• bag, a small wan
• lose weight
• shorts
• jeans
  

skipped dlc for $$$

ytd had meeting with e2..aft tt went to dlc an stayed till ard 10++ and went hm with ren min, zhang xuan and ramli...feel like stayin cos i find tt my grp is quite fun...but considering tt i've work e next day and my mummy will scold if i were to inform her so last min abt e need to camp in school....so i went hm in e end..haha...quite a number of orientation ppl were in this dlc committee...belvin, samuel, sandy, guan hui, karen, alvina and june are all in this dlc as FAs and programmers.....donno if they discovered them during orientation or wat...but feel so happy to see them there...they're part of the reason of making me having the thgt to stay in dlc...

today, ltr i've to work at HUSK at 2pm...sianz....but time will pass quickly rite? haha...hope so...felicia told me to blog ytd nite to kill her boredom but i didnt and chatted wif her on the phone instead...got nt much to blog abt leh lately...the life is not v well as i expected...it's all abt the mixed feelings inside me..but it's difficult to express it out in words and inconvenient to be know here...at least i think it's inconvenient la...tt's y i chatted wif felicia..haha...

random

yea tml there's no school! but but but...late evening got meeting wif e2 abt director's cup thingy...)= sian 1/2...tml i'm gg to sleep till gao gao...since nth to do i think i blog smthg abt the orientation?

Orientation
admin did a great job...if we were being too demanding or rushing u guys on some stuff and yet we didnt set a good example to u gals...sorry abt it...i know e'one is tired thrgout the camp...partly cos not enough sleep..mainly cos it's too bored! rite? yea i'm right! haha...but we all did a good job...yea! haha...but seriously i think we needed more self-displine..all of us including me, nurul and WINNA! didnt really enjoy this camp...lots of stress and unhappiness instead! i want to be a participant!!! i admit being part of the committee isn't tt fun...or maybe it's different for different committee ba...

food&logistics did a great job! though food not tt delicious...i know is the school's fault! find such unpleasant food for us! haha...ur services are great! positive attitude! hehe...admin as well but there's room for improvement..haha..

admin gals if u all happen to read this entry...i ask u all...did we treat u all like sub-coms and not those friends friends kind? cos i'm hoping for tt friend friend kind of relationship....but wen it's time to be serious, we have to lah...did we? tell me if we didnt..or we did...can personal msg n tell me...haha..

u gals are sweet to leave us a THANK YOU msg on the whiteboard after u all left the admin room on e last day of camp...haha..THANKS! we're v touch...tt's e good points abt gals...they're sweet...thanks gals! but i seriously think i'm not those shu nu kind! hahaha...

programmers are damn high....love them! haha...the orangey ppl...admin are the bananas, e yellow dirty fellows...haha...but we're clean k! the food&logistic, the greenies..x-ors the pinkies...

ok this is a quite random entry...hope ppl get wat i'm trying to say? haha...i miss the japanese!!! (=

staying out late

i've been staying out late and reach hm at ard 1 recently...y? what have i been busying with? i donno...busy with nth but had been wasting time outside...y'day is just e first day of the school...and i had skipped the afternoon lessons and went bugis wif sandy they all...meet up wif max they all for dinner at the late evening and slack ard till 12++...i rush hm to transfer those JSXP (Japanese Student Exchange Programme) pictures to my laptop...in e end i only managed to finish 2 CDs only out of 7 CDs...i scanned neoprints took at bugis n send them to sandy they all asap as i could...

today is hari raya puasa but i've to work half day...first news in e mrgn by eileen is tt HUSK (tt shop's name) is being burglared! luckily not much losses cos only the cash is being taken only...it's told by the police tt it's the job of professionals cos they did the burgalary within few minutes even w/o gg into the shop...i was shocked cos the last person to leave HUSK is me n eileen...the burglary occurred ard 10mins ltr aft we leave HUSK...it's said tt it's done by two malay guys...their photos are being captured by the CCTV...

met up wif sandy alvin, vivi and pi wen aft work...went st to VIVO city to meet karen they all..very little ppl went to sentosa this afternoon...karen, samuel, gerald, jason gay n pang, sin nee, two unknown gal whr i donno their name, belvin, guan hui, dexter and esc ppl....pi wen, sandy, vivi, alvin n i went off first...didnt know whr to go so in e end we all went hm....sandy's mum treat me bali thai...vivi and pi wen surprised us by appearing at bali thai wif a ice-cream wif candles on top...for sandy cos she's not v happy on e way back hm...but is just cos she's too tired n bored, tt's y she appear unhappy...reached hm at ard 10.30...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANDY!!! 18 is not old k! 17 is childish! 16 & below is not developed yet! now being 18 is the trend!!! wahaha...wa this few sentence donno will offend how many ppl...

*PS: sumi mase ppl...JSXP pictures is still in e process of uploading n filtering cos too many extras unnecessary faces in the files...hahaha...JBK n JBQ!!!

**yeah i think i've already sort out some things tt are previously hanging in my mind le! (hope tt's true?)

wat's happening?

camps have finally come to an end..lesser stress, lesser problems to handle with, more sleep, more time wif family!

recently i tink my life hasn't been rite...alot of things had been happening which makes me wonder what's life is all abt? y i've to be like this? y do i've to get myself into such a difficult position? e'tin is like nt gg very well..not gg smoothly for me...donno y....it's very difficult to find a balance in life..but i'm always stubbornly insist on finding a balance in it! ya fan jian la me...

ok wo zai gao you yu..lol..haha..yea i know friends..i don tink so much rite..ltr all pimples pop out more n more! lol...haha..but i cant stop thinking...haiz...stupid entry ar...but i v lazy to blog abt the past few weeks de stuff....but i had lotsa of fun wif e2 ppl!

*ni men shi SAM PHAT de lor! hahaha...
*u better say sorry! say sorry! if not u got teeth come, no teeth go back! wahahaha...

school starting

JSXP was excellent! i miss them...miss all my shuai ge! taken lotsa of photos wif them...so i'll upload asap...cos there's too much..haha...JSXP training camp is also fun! i've not rested well since the start of holiday...busy wif too many stuffs...chalets, camps, work, chalets, camps, work.....camping alone can tired me out! haha..but i still prefer to camping den to working...work is boring! but for e sake of money...haha...i haven gt my first pay yet...soon i tink wen school reopen...k past few weeks de events too many le...i lazy to blog back those events....but memories are all in my head! haha...i'll still be working wen sch reopens....like v desperate for $$$....yea i am...to save for next yr's overseas trip! to go shopping! long time nva shop...while bringing those jap to shop ard....i realise i've been a frog in e well for donno how long le..so many new things n changes la! haha..k nitex ppl...

y gals cant stay out late!

Yesterday's work was fine cos there's cindy working wif me...so I wun be as bored as on Saturday...but there's no sales at all the whole mrgn till ard 4+ den our sales start to improve...so in e end we made ard $500++ of sales...aft work I went straight to buy ICE-CREAM from Hagen Daz...cos while I'm at work, there's a lot of ppl tt walk past me were eating ice-cream…some even walk to rite in fornt of me! Cos they are looking at the crystals n stuff while eating their ice-cream....wa so tempting....so I told cindy I MUST go n buy ice-cream n eat right aft work! Haha....went back to tamp n meet chun wai, leon, Daniel and sin yee at tamp mart...we both waited for more than 30mins before they finally reach! So in e end I cant go hm early...chatted till ard 1plus den can go hm!

Omg...my parents are gg crazy la..luckily my mum slept already so is my dad tt is calling my hp non-stop...den cw they all still don wanna dismiss! So in e end back at hm while doing anything like gg to bath room, opening n closing of room's door etc...All have to be done v quietly and were in slow motion so as to minimize as much sound as possible! Scare wake my mum up n her naggings n scoldings starts...majiam burglar like tt la...e'tin do till so gui gui shui shui...)=

Y la...y must I be a gal? and y must it be tt gals are those tt are not suppose to stay out late and have to get hm early! y my parenta just wun let me have more freedom n trust me knowing tt I stay out late at night will be fine n alrite n tt I'll take care of myself wan! Ok I know they're worried abt my safety...haiz...how to gain their trust..wat I told my uncle abt having a pair of wings at e age of 18 is not wrong...having tt pair of wings to fly, still depends greatly on my mother if she wants to let me have the wings n learn to let go n to let me fly wif more freedom! Haiz…)=

Today no work! Haha..so happy...meet felicia n wen to school together...did spring-cleaning for the club room wif the others...the room is now neater n organized...went CS to buy shirts for the committee...ate pasta wif Felicia cos we’re too hungry to go hm n eat....we didn't eat lunch tt's y...In the mrgn, i ate an apple n she ate her two piece of her overnight DE-FROZE poh piah....so er rite...haha...she keep insisting it's already de-froze so it's alrite to eat it...but I thgt it's...ewww...haha...walk ard TM n bought some toiletry for camping use...i keep rushing her to get hm asap cos I'm v worried tt my parents will scold..cos I've been gg hm lately, have not been staying at hm also...haiz...in e end wen I reach hm, I thgt of avoiding my dad n quickly chiong into my room...

but unfortunately he grabbed my hands n started questioning me! Den my super extra g0r! still at there add oil add vinegar! So feel like slapping his damn mouth! So aft brief explanation, my dad let me off…haha..he's still e best..hehe..I'm like my pa cos he also the one tt are always hanging outside n returns home late...so I'm like him whr I cant always stay at hm, we'll sure get out of hse if there's a chance to..haha..

den aft bathing is my mum's turn..haiz..wen I told her tml I'll be in school...her face rotate 360 degree la! Scold me say e'day go school also donno do wat...u guys tell me how m I were to explain to her wat m I doing in school? Tell her doing orientation stuff, she also don unstd orientation stuff can do wat so many things! I also donno how to explain to her, wat's my cca, Bizen club is all abt! See la...yi yan nan jing lor! Is not I don wan to explain n keep e'tin from her leh! Is I donno how to explain so tt she unstd wat's my job scope in Bizen! Haiz..HAIZ!!! Den she wants to boil soup for her tml, so I'm waiting n listening to her instructions..den she every sentence pause so long den continue la..how am I to know wen will den she finish her words so tt I can leave!

Wen I thgt she has already finish her words n I was abt to walk out of her room..wa lao...her volume n tone increase la! @#$%! is she herself talk so slow n pause so long aft every sentence...den how I know wen will den she talk finish ar! Den she scold me again! Say wat she haven talk finish, whr I wan to go! Wa....arrggghhh! Finally aft confirming tt she has already finish her words, and as I was walking out of her room, she shouted to call me decrease the TV volume in the living room...idiot..the volume n TV is not under me rite! I mean I’m not the one watching n not the one whom on the volume till so loud la..is my dad la! -.-..wu li qu nou! Unresonable! Ya friends, u ppl r not wrong by saying tt my mum is fierce! Plus she got abit siao! Ok I'm bad to say my mum...but I still have to say! Haiz...

thinking of my next few weeks of not staying at hm n chances of returning hm late will be a worst thing! Donno wat will be happening at my hse...v scare n worried lor..e'day scare go hm will kana scold or wat de..i hate this type of feelings! Haiz!!!