Here and there...

Some one day while in office in May...

Suddenly, there is this smell, this feeling of the period..the period after my PSLE, everyday slacking at my bedok home (my grandparents') ...it's raining very heavily, the whole house is so dark and cold yet i feel so warm...sitting in the kitchen, chatting with my grandma and mummy while constantly nibbing on the food she had just cooked...Running to living room, watching the nw os donno 911 or some mjor issues...i wasn't really bothered by all those big happenings n news at that time of age instead i'm really enjoying the warmth and her cookings...such wonderful cooking skills she've got...skipping back and forth the kitchen to living room to nibble on the food...shouting across the living room to interrupt in both of their conversation....

Some short paragraph i extracted from an enlightening book...

" Life is a difficult experience and it's an on-going one. You keep learning until you did. Life is difficult but you keep thinking it should not be so, that it should be easy. Now i think that life should be difficult. Because that's the way we learn. "

5thJune2008-
Malaysia relatives came and we had a dinner with them at bedok south...great food great accompany followed by visiting of T3....

after dinner, sitting around chatting among cousins and my sanyi....all laughing so happily upon mentioning her...all smiles and laughter...but all the smiles and laughter soon fade.....it's only sighs, hias inside us tho none of us dare to show it out...there is just this moment where laughter and smiles just fades like as if we're guilty of smiling so happily when she's suffering like this...i was feeling bad nd awkward...cos i shouldn't have mention about her in our conversation...i shouldn't have! but it's jus so natural that she just appear in my mind and came out from my mouth...i still feel the guilty and the thought of feeling it's a pity...it's awaste....it's all still the same...i guess the love for her just grow even more...we desire more.... hais~