Dragon Boat Tradegy

school today? i'm crying in lecture room today....after hearing mindy say abt the dragon boat tradegy issue...donno why but sadness just fill and tears will drop...hais...what is life? why death? why these people? bright future ahead....all hopes got crashed....emotional hurt....smthg which cannot be cure easily...i'm sure nobody or nth can replace them....i didnt know what to say but it's like...life is always unfair and is smthg i didnt know why!!! who can tell me?

one case, felicia's bro friend....his friend is waiting to come home in singapore to bring his gf home to let parents see and maybe to discuss about marriage...and now...e'tin gone...both family n gf will sure be damn damn sad....i did not watch any news on the tv abt this issue....and i only heard abt it from felicia and mindy....and it is alr so heart-breaking to just hear abt it leh! imagine you're involved in it, you watched the news, you're their family and friends....HAIS.... :'(
why ar? unfair..death....tradegy....

today's ccom, rafiq also mentioned abt this...he said this...

"life is unpredictable, so if can learn to be good to people, learn to be kind and do not find faults on others...learn to forgive and forget! so that people will only rmb the good side of you..."

forgive and forget...it's not that easy....everyone just keep saying...life and death is part and parcel of life....but why didnt they question why? why can they accept and say this sentence out that easily? do they say that just to console someone or do they really unstd the chim-ness of it?! maybe i might accept and unstd it before..but now i know i do not unstd and i question abt it...

today's tears is not cos affected by my personal issues but it's really...this tradegy really makes one feel heart-breaking....everyone of the 5 of them who are dead has bright future ahead of them....the scene of the whole team kneeling down in front of the sea, the news that the 5 bodies all floated up andwas found together on the same day....it somehow shows how united they are even they're dead...it's like....i keep questioning...why ar...why? alot of things i don unstd....anybody unstd?! :'(

3am=early, 5am=late!

Reporting current time: 3.21am of 27/11/2007, Tuesday morning

(take 10mins off to blog....)

ha~ it's still early man! haha...what is late? late=near to 5am!!

yea almost everyday will take a quick 2-3hrs nap at 8pm or 9pm and start working at 11pm or 12 midnight.....annnnnnnnnnd.....slept only at 4+am to 5am...by 5am i will shut my desktop and all the stupid MajorProject windows and off i PONG onto my bed, hugging my bolster and cuddle under my big Mickey Mouse comforter!! haha...

saturday
was at school the whole afternoon with felicia and jieyi doing MP...till the library close at 5.30am and felt so HONOURED to have one security guard and one librarian escorting the 3 of us out of the library and witnessing the 'closing down of TP library'....ok i mean the end of operation for the day...i went off leaving felicia and jieyi in engine block continuing with their work....visited grandma and went to some distant relative' BBQ...it's an invitation so we all went and had our dinner there....oh please i almost starve to death when we finally reach the pit....

they are kuku to book a pit that is like those last few pits at the end of the EastCoastPark....how far? it is that far where we all walked past the whole stretch of CoastaSandsResorts, the SeafoodRestuarants(omg looking at those ppl sitting outdoor enjoying their delicious seafood dinner!) and the EastCoastFoodCentre! and it is not there yet...we still have to walk some distance before we see the ulu pit....diao....smthg unique abt their BBQ...they have steamboat there! a steamboat cum BBQ..quite a not bad idea ar? haha...in addition the steamboat pot is those very antique kind one that uses charcoal!!! haha...damn that night was not at all windy and all of us are sweating like hell...

went to fetch yin from WhiteSandsCoffeeClub...yea she works there and transferring to T3 this week....was feeling very tired but no choice still have to do MP...arrgghh...and i slept at 5am sharp!

sunday
i will not make my body suffer...haha...though i slept 'early' at 5am in the mrgn, i make sure i sleep for 8hrs before i wake up! haha...woke up at 1pm and had lunch and medicine(hais..with this kind of life, medicine can still help cure my pimples meh!)...start work at ard 3pm after watching several scv shows which really helps me destress...cos it makes me laugh! haha...did not visit grandma and did MP....slept early at 8pm thinking of waking up at 11pm but i woke up only at 1am...cos alarm set wrongly....diao....

monday
meet angel n peizhen 10am at mushroom...had breakfast w/o felicai at bispark and we all start discussing supply chain case study at 12noon? starting i'm clear where we are going at and brain juice is still producing....at the late evening, brain juice seems to be finishing where both angel and i aren't thinking anymore and just crap....dot...we witness the sunset again....leaving the library only at ard 8pm....donno what happen to peizhen..she's not thinking..haha...and in fact quite blur...and angel seems pek chek abt her...haha...anw she create joke k! haha..she make us laugh!!! haha...i think peizhen's mind is thinking of angel n yaoqing's dream where our zhen jie got married to her qing ge ge! ROFL!!!

dined with felicia and i waited for my parents to fetch me home....cos they are at nearby....and tried sleeping at 9+pm as soon as i got home....i only manage to fall asleep at 10++! and i woke up at 11.30pm by my sister....as usual...when i manage to fall into sleep...sure have alot of disturbance like PHONE CALL and QUINCY....arrgh...asap online n finish supply chain slides and start on MP...

ok my only surviving k505 classmate, SPY is also down already....it's 4.16am! ok got to sleep if not tml there will be high chance i can't get up!!! arrgh...GOOD NIGHT!

let's all CHIONG for the last part of MP these few days till friday!!! ((=

Food Fair

Monday was spent in school library doing project with SPY....

Tuesday school school school....had supply chain quiz 1...alright...shldn't fare too badly...time past fast with numerous photo taking session with rangers....after school, mindy peizhen, SPY and i went to food fair at expo hall 5..omg...mindy really display all her auntie side out! haha...both SPY and i thgt we both will be the most auntie but it turns out we are nothing as compared to mindy tan! haha..we see her auntie-ness makes us hide our aunite actions....LOL...mindy tan u win!!! haha...mindy tan bought quite alot...i meet my parents there and bought alot too! haha...

back at home after wash up, i went to sleep! haha....cos my shoulder is going to break from carrying my heavy bag....headaches and yawns from all the squeezing at the hall...plus the smelly smoke of all the cookings....haha...

cindy called and told me jean thgt of calling me back to Husk to work for weekdays but i rejected...cos i do not dare to accept, making myself busy and unable to cope btw school and work.....but i wan to earn money...cos i've got alot of things to spent on!!! haha..whatever...now focus on academic and i can work all i want after graduation or even for the rest of my life!!! (=

*will upload pictures taken asap when SPY upload..*

Chalet

my butt aches! my tighs ache!!!

haha...all thanks to the exercising at shota's house...tried learning squash which is not easy...i only manage to catch the ball twice...all the while i'm picking up balls..haha...sandy and i left at 3+pm...i went home to rest, watched fu man ren jian and bath...after bathing, i went to meet sinyee and we travelled down to chunwai's chalet....

cindy came only at about 10plus...both of us and wenqi sat Vick' car to fetch cindy at the interchange...followed terry's car to fetch yiting home to change....cos Vick's car need terry's car that aranda sticker den can park inside aranda....nope the chalet is at downtown but they parked their car at aranda....i enjoy sitting speed car (like my dad's)! wahaha...it's really fun...thought ytd night the speeding is more than my father usual speed and i shld worry abt my life but i'm enjoying it...haha...it's thrilling and fun..i love the feeling of fast speed.....it's really like.....the feeling is so free...haha..ok i know.....dots..haha...

ok so slacked and eat there...like esss gathering sia! cos alot of esss schoolmates like wang heng, wei ping, nicholas, terry, ruben, yiting, hui wen and the 3 of us...wei ping currently serving NS with a botak head like monk! haha..his face really like monk..LOL...actually i'm not close with them or neither do we all talk...haha...and weird everyone gather in tt chalet...

played bluff which was totally not fun cos i donno how to bluff! arrgh...haha..so we (ah jon, wenqi, sinyee, me, yiting and cindy) changed to one idiotic game...starting with actions of mona lisa and hercules..we invent new actions ourselves like superman, statue of liberty(by ah jon) and zhao cai mao...hahaha...created alot of stupid jokes....forefit is to drink water cos yiting don drink...omg feel so bloated...we others stayed till 3am+ and chunwai drove vick's car to send cindy,sinyee,yiting and me home...slept at ard 4am....

Sunday was visiting grandma at bvh, did BSI and studied chpt 1 of supply chain quiz....

CCN day

this year's CCN day looks fun and crowded....but it's actually crowded with alot of stalls tender...LOL...all mending the stalls...not alot of ppl actually...it's crowded n stuffy...make us(who is helping teo to distribute flyers) so tired...only distribute flyers ad target ppl for donation only leh...so tired....cos of the humid weather and the stuffy ennvironment ba? sandy's dog helped us to get quite an amt of donation...haha...$1 per touch! LOL...of course the main purpose for her dog's visit to TP is not to help us get donation...she came for the dog grooming...really DOG cos got that DOG SMELL! hahaha..LOL...and got this lecturer after knowing that it's $1/touch, he touch till gao gao den donate us $5...ROFL...easy money ar...haha...

lunch at Pasta Mania...vivi sandy piwen felicia and i gossips and talk about those XIANG DANG NIAN de stories...LOL...really OLD...felicia say i really changed alot...changed mature..feelings and looks...last time looks very energetic and bubbly and lively like that...got tt nian qing ren de feel...but now....haha...really change liao..mature...didnt really bother by what felicia and sandy comment about bein mature...cos i think, it's time to be mature at this age....in fact i think i need to be even more mature! haha...thought of uploading some of the old pictures up to see the diff...haha...but i think forget it..LOL..cos too many alr! plus i don wan ppl come bombing my tag board blaming me to put their DANG NIAN de pictures up....LOL...it's really fun looking back at all the photos and blog entries! ROFL!!!

travel on bus 72 again! :/ luckily i sleep and didnt think too much...

BUT...upon seeing her...ahhhhhhhhh...it all comes again!!! arrgh...

really afraid of losing her.....i miss her everything...i haven return her all the kindness or yang yu zhi en that she had given me.....really...i haven did enough of filial piety towards her.....and i really feel very bad and is full of guilt.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~! before...i told myself, i must let my children call her great- grandmother...i want her to take care and dote on my children like how well she have taken care of me...i want to let her see who will be the boyfriend of mine...i want her to attend my wedding, witnessing the growing up of me....i want to share alot of things with her...i have not started sharing anything with her yet! now all the chances are slim....i really miss her....i still cannot get it...why...why is it her? why is our family? it's always sighs and bu gan yuan in me.....i really......i donno...i donno how to handle this...i donno how to view this matter....i really miss her voice..i miss her calling me AH QIN....i miss her praising me....i miss her laughter....i miss together with my cousins making her laugh non-stop.....it's always fun with her....

she is everywhere in my life..really....today i painted my nails....if she's able to talk and move, she will hold my hands close to her eyes (as her eyes sight is falling) and praise that it's nice or maybe sometimes some not so good weird funny comments that will make us laugh....but i just enjoy her comments....every actions of hers will leave a big smile on my face.....all i think is her.....i miss chatting with her....how i hope she appears in my dream every night chatting with me.....

is all sighs and regrets.....i miss addressing you as MA!!! i still can call you MA..but can you really hear? do yu know if is qin who is calling you???

EMO...

despite yesterday night sleeping early at around 12 midnight....i woke up only at 8.35am for my 9am lab! lol...and is felicia's call that made me realise that i'm late!!! hahaha...i'm deprive from enough sleep! so today went home after all the lect at 3pm..and slept till 5.30pm before travellin to yio chu kang with sister to visit grandma...dinner with parents at bedok 416 after sending ah gong home...

emo emo..emo on bus 72....always on this bus...arrgh!

tml CCN day...helping teo to mend the booth...

saturday....gg shota's house for sports cum bbq....den at night meeting cindy and sinyee to go downtown east....another bbq...BUSY~! haha..

shit...OTC camp and K505 chalet....HOW??? want to go k505 chalet for 2 nights cos they(mindy and SPY) tempting me with activities! they want to night cycled together with whole class without me!! arrgh! eh you all don like that leh...!

Miss shanghai these days

i donno why these few days i especially miss shanghai....maybe cos too stress up...miss the life over there ba? even my dream's setting is in some china production area!

out of no where during lesson or on the road on while doing something....the feeling just come....images of some shanghai places appear....dot...

i think the life back here is too hectic and stress up already...agree Jas? agree Qian?

sooo..pek enjoy life over there!!! ah bin u also! jun wern u also!!! i think ys don online de ba? HAHAHA..i miss you people! (=

Stress tuesday

met rangers at 11am sharp except MINDY TAN! haha..she own each of us a Macdonald meal already but angel only got Mac's ala carte...haha...cos angel own each of us dessert except mindy..LOL...had brunch at bis school and discussed BSI project...seems like there is no outcome..haha..

went for supply chain tutorial...wa...our class will never be quiet as usual..except during rafiq's ccom...so my group went out of classroom for a more quiet environment to focus on our study case...but it's still the same...voices of laughings and shoutings of our female classmates are still heard clearly...dot...

i hate tues...stressful day...ccom...hais...always more stress after ccom...cos it's all about MP report again! AGAIN!!! .... went library to look for fyp awhile n went off to bugis with vivi n felicia...

dine at V8 with the rest of BWP members...went kinokuniya awhile n went home! someone with significant status send an order that she wants to shop at bugis so we, fellow loyal members, eagerly agreed...AND.....we didnt shop and went all the way to bugis to just have a meal at V8! so fun huh! nobody (at least me) don't want to shop alone...ok whatever, abit angry and feel mo ing qi miao....but now..aiya WHATEVER la...people's mood changes..mine too...

OH NO! i just realise i got OTC camp crashed with k505 CHALET!!! OH NO NO NO!!! exactly the same dates, same day!!! 17 dec to 19 dec!!! SHIT! F***! how sia?! i can don go OTC but go FOC/FOW????

I LOVE SINGLEHOOD! (=

I LOVE SINGLEHOOD!

haha..i donno why i especially love singlehood that much now...maybe cos i don need to report to one more person about my whereabouts other than my parents which is alr enough...maybe i have more time with friends, family and own things....maybe cos i don have to worry more things? i don need to fear more things? i don need more troubles? haha..or maybe....RELATIONSHIP is not in my list!!! haha...something have overtake it by alot alot...haha...that's my FAMILY! (= FRIENDS of course! haha...

i do envy sweet loving couples...i don't promote people not gg into r/s...but i will analyse to them what i think...i don't encourage break-ups unless a break up is the best solution...i don't rush to get one unless it's time to...haha...i know the kind of love or care or whatever you got from your the other part is different from the kind you got from friends n family...but i know i don't need it now...haha..

weird ar...i want to be old hag or old virgin (lao chu nu) and don get marry? NO! haha..

before there are times where i yearn for one..but this always don't last long and in addition to the situation now...i know i don't even need or yearn for one! not even a single bit ba? so far not even a little bit....haha...why nobody suspect smthg wrong with me ar? i mean..why nobody ever suspect that i might not like guys..haha..hmmm..thinking why my family nobody suspect...haha...nonono...i don mean i am crooked..i mean i'm straight and i'm attracted to guys..haha...

anyway....relationships are a WANT and NOT a NEED to me! so i can live without it..but not for long la! haha...

why this post? purely bo liao..got abit of ling gan..and giving answers to those with puzzled face when i told them i'm single...they ask me why and i also puzzled...cos i have no answer to why am i single for so long...HAHA...and also to those whom keep encouraging me to go into r/s?

to piwen and sandy: go on to find one for this december and next feb! haha..our pact since 2006 january right? haha...

Jappies

Sunday

little india has not enough road lights! it's so dark! =X haha...i mean alot of indians..duh! ya as i say india! haha...crossing road there allows me to display my skills of crossing shanghai's road! WAHAHA...is must heck care of the car and chiong one lor! HAHAHA...sandy kana scare by me..lol...and...omg...DnG is shuai...'swimming smoker' is cool! Nick Yeo n Black Ranger (ren zhe) is KAWAII neh!!! haha...all handsomemu la! haha...flower eat pattern all come out liao! the jap girls are also pretty...face complexion damn good!!! haha...not enough time to interact with them...too bad...we didnt manage to take pictures with them also!!!

we (piwen, sandy, me) dine at PS and chatted....girls' topic...we're getting OLD!!! omg~ can't help thinking of that...future? work? study? boyfriend? marriage? HAHA...those whom have discuss abt all these topics hld know what i talking about....female really has short youth span...haha...guys...ha~ you all have alot k!!! **** haha...flirts, flings, gossips etc...alot are in the conversation..haha...so sandy u got an answer from our conversations? haha..

shopped at far east..ya like AGAIN...for 3 continous days! this time i fail to keep my hands to myself..i bought nail polish, which i don really need but i just like the colour, from SkinFood...and the cardigan with Sandy Tan! TSK!! oh ya..one whole day keep calling "lesbie~" with her hands hugging to my hand...of course i rejected and pull my hands away...i can't stand so er xin! ya la...i not girl...haha..reached home at ard 11plus...called cindy n hung up at around 1am? haha..(=

Happy 20th Birthday Jordan Tay!

the trip to shankar's place was cancelled..so meeting sandy piwen n maybe felicia joining us in some event...omg i think it's gg to be fun! haha..

ok yesterday(saturday)...yesterday's topic at bvh was what if you (16 -17teens) were to be employed to work with some relatives and had to be get scolded....

so both my sanyi and i (Team A) was debating with my mum and eryi(Team B)...seems interesting eh? haha...

Team A's stand is...if you want to work for relatives ok...fine..you must know how to divide the line btw work and personal life clearly...so you think teens can think that clearly? and do you think now those teens will want to get scolded? can they take it? ok of course if you are at wrong, you deserve the scoldings...ok so...scold alr..you can tahan ma? will forgive him meh? ok not a matter of forgiveness...is a matter of you'll still have to face your relatives after all these....ok whatever it is....i think teens now are not that simple...and attitude might not be as good as the past teens...and is like...endurance....the exposure to the outside world....

Example like my sister...who have just finish N level...still new to outside worklife...at home, she's cry baby..little scoldings or naggings....she cry...wat do u think if she's to be outside working...whr ppl don even care who you're! they don think you're new or whatever..they just need capable ppl.... (oh please ong hui yin it's just an example...i'm not pin pointing at you! it just happen that you are just right for this example and mummy intro u to the work..ha~and ytd when i'm talking...i'm not referring to you only...and i'm NOT SCOLDING or agitated towards you working or whatsoever! i'm pek chek with mummy not gettin my point!)

i think Team B think too highly or too surface about these days teens.....i think they did not think in now those teens' de mindset....i donno if u all unstd wat i'm trying to say....haha...

anyway Team B's point of view is all last time they all go work those kind...whatever unhappy about work or abt boss or upper management's arrangment...you've got to tolerate....but do you think in this century teens who are especially implusive n hot tempered will think right and properly to act in situations?

i think i have more to say but am lazy! haha..yea tt's the topic at bvh...haha..

i meet felicia at Braddell station n take train to Orchard....all the while when we are at orchard, we are busy contacting n sms-ing with peizhen n mindy..haha..cos we're giving jordan a surprise! haha..so felicia and i bought Choco Exotic from St Leaven (actually same as four leave) but felicia insisted it's more class one! haha...and when it's time we went to the field (whr the flea markets are) beside Cine to prepare...we stand there v long n it's warm! cos we rush there and we're nervous! fear that jordan will be able to see us...haha...so mindy n peizhen blindfold him with his tt snowcap and bring him to the field....haha...

tadaaa...Happy Birthday to....followed by chinese version with Felicia as the lead and the only survivor...HAHAHA..cos the rest of us are laughing like helll! haha..laughing at what i'm not sure...haha...and we picnic there like bangla under those trees at that dark dark area!!! haha...
Birthday Boy..Jordan Tay!

Bangla's Picnic! with Long John fastfood! LOL

all Rangers with Jordan Tay but angel not around!

the cake is superb k! haha..everyone enjoy it...ltr vincent, his fren hua, huiwei, yao qing and xinyi joined us at the Blanga's picnic! haha...and we went Balcony to slack n drink...mindy's walk slanted! haha...felicia and i took cab home..she start cam-whoring as soon as we get up the cab at Heeren to PIE to street 32 (her house)! non stop leh...i was talking on the phone n had to stop to take picture with her! -.-... had a good night sleep! (=

11-17nov Schedule

Upcoming Week's Schedule:

Sunday:

• Elf's Shankar's Birthday Open House (don even know the address yet lor!)
• Late afternoon - Joining Piwen, Sandy and Felicia to bring some Jappies ard the island! YEAH..((=
• Rangers Night Cycling - shld be cancel due to school work! )=

Monday:

• Still doing on Chpt 3 and chpt 4 of report? (felicia?)
• TPSU FOC/FOW Log-go meeting at 6pm...

Tuesday:

• Evening: ELF senior farewell night at 7pm ba?

Saturday:

• Chalet and BBQ

that's all for now...so BWP, friday on ma? haha...i can join u all k! haha..

Viva, Bee Movie, BWP at orchard

Yeah another end of a week of datelines....weekends will be spent relaxing n enjoying to get prepare for the upcoming datelines n stress! haha..

ytd Viva presentation...i was quite not satisfied with myself...abit of disappointed but we did not bad, looking at our grades.....nvm...do better for the next few presentations! esp. Judging day! omg...it's on the 29 nov...end of this month!!! ..... both of us woke up as late as 10+ whr we 'aimed' to meet at 10am! haha...if we are able to wake up at 8+ to meet at 10am...i think we are robots instead of humans....cos we slept only at 5am in thr mrgn!!! my latest record...i wonder when is the day i work till the next day and i don't have to sleep where i go straight to school...haha..i can foresee the day is coming soooon! haha...

after Viva, i went orchard excitedly to meet the BWP via express518.... alone without felicia of course...do i have to always be seen with her?! NO..I CAN DO WITHOUT HER K! haha...shld ask if she can do w/o me?! hahahaha...i slept on the bus worrying i'll miss my stop! haha..i saw eugene n his classmate guo liang..haha..ok hi-bye with a smile and off i speed to Heeren...haha...i self-question why i'm walking so fast (as usual)...haha...so i bought Mac's Mudpie Mcflurry and walk slowly to Heeren..haha...eerrrwww...the Mcflurry is disappointing cos it's too sweet for me! shld have spent my $$$ on those traditional ice-cream! haha...neverthless, I still LOVE ICE-CREAM! haha..

I guess i've miss out alotof gossips for not joining them at sakae...haha...but it's also lucky because i'm escape from being one of their target of gossiping!! haha..esp with the presence of Tan Shan Di (my lesbie)!! she always like to be suspicious of my personal life, start questioning like in the police station with a spot light shine on me, dig out secrets or make me blurt some scandals news out....haha...even tho i don have any to tell her! haha...just like while walking to far east, i randomly ask her a what-if question...

me: hey what if you one day on the road saw me wit someone fat...erm not fat la..maybe big sized..
sandy (grab my hands with her biggest eyes) : huh? ahhh..who who? quick say..which one?
me: don have la! is a what-if question only....
sandy: impossible out of no where ask this kind of question..quick tell me...
me (thinking i shldn't have ask) : ya la...nth la..cos i just saw a couple so i ask la...so can foresee me with this kind of person???

haha..and goes blah blah blah..yea tt's my lesbie...so CONCERN abt my personal life...abt all my scandals....haha..

next...almost bought a cardigan with her! always drag me spent together with her...another thing is havianas! wth...haha..i've bought 2 pairs of havianas with her already! haha...she give me excuses like camps coming so we need new one for camp...haha...such lousy excuses she can come up with to persuade me to buy hur...haha...

sandy if u persuade longer i might really buy the cardigan! hahaha..heng ar! but havianas really ex ar...lol...have been trying to save money after coming back from Shanghai! haha...went off at ard 9+pm...i meet sinyee at tamp station and we went mac...i ate cos i've to eat medicine..actually also cos i hungry la..didnt have any proper meal the whole day leh! DIET! haha..if not really need to DING liao! haha...right Jas n Qian?! haha..been busy the whole day to prepare the Viva...Thanks Jieyi's Kinder Bueno..help me to survive..haha...I'm bueno-ing! haha..(=

met chunwai n we watched Bee Movie...a cartoon movies...-.-" haha...i laughed alot because of the stupid-ness of the show..haha...walked home after that...since it's near...to me la...haha...I LOVE TO WALK! haha..chunwai and me walked sinyee to her house lift cos hers reahed first...chunwai then walked me home and he then go home...i called felicia to discuss smthg n slept at 3am! haha..

oh one more thing...THANKS RANGERS for the VIDEO...haha...we didnt know abt thie video till we're back in school...haha...they gave us a CD with slideshow n video in it the day before we leave for Shanghai...we didnt know there's video...haha...so both felicia and i watched it only ytd while preparing for Viva...haha..so funny...yes..we're touched la k..didnt cry but it's on the verge only la...got the want to cry de feeling but wun cry out those kind...hahaha..anyway...
THANKS!!!

TO SPY: u better make a copy for me to keep also!!!!

Mag's 18th BBQ (misses)

ytd was rushing in the day and relaxing at night!

felicia and i were blurred enought to think that the dateline for handing up of out chpt 1 n 2 was at 5pm which actualy was at 12 noon! and know what? i'm still sleeping at home at 10.30++am...and felicia haven got up...i recieved the news from sandy and this news really wake me up...haha...i am still half asleep....and we rush down to sch by cab at 11.30am...haha....and we rush to Blk 14 concourse level to finish those parts that aren't done yet...of course we unable to finish it by 12 noon...haha...so in the end with the help of vivi n jieyi, we managed to hdn in our report only at ard 2pm...haha...it was rushing la...cos everyone keep running ard concourse to get their report printed n bind....haha..and we both are still sitting down there typing our report! hahaha...and my stupid ao tah laptop so slow....worst than tortise....i need to reformat it...i need to treat it with medicine cos got alot of virus...but how?

after those rushing hours, together with BWP and jieyi, we went to iZone to grade our OSIP supervisors and we (except jieyi) all signed up for E-guides together...out of the 6 of us..3 was signed up unwillingly...hahaha..and we (sandy, me, piwen) made them joined...usin excuses like get more CCA points so can go Uni, last year must enjoy, join le den decide and blah blah blah...haha...tho they know is just all excuses..but they still join! haha...i feel like saying,"That's what we call friends!" but i hesitant and decided that they are my friends if they go for the camp and the actual day event! hahaha...as if they'll be threaten! haha...hey but we all are really great FRIENDS to FELICIA SIM k! cos we all signed up for vegetarian meal with her! we know her pattern...she wun wan to declare she is vegetarian and rather don have any meals! -.-" haha...

this is the front, angel side only, we signed up vegetarian meal with her....at the back, the dark side of this friendship, we don eat the vegetarian meal n rather starve to have roti prata for supper! HAHAHA..!

we went TM to have PASTA MANIA....cos student discount...haha..felicia's fav...haha...great late brunch...and shopped around TM and CS with my heavy bag n lousy laptop! ... my back is breaking la from all the hours of sitting in front of computer every night...so i keep finding seats to sit instead of shopping...haha...my body is also shutting down...haha..


i went off early and travel alone to bvh to visit ma (my ah por)....i call her ma since young and didnt change..haha...donno y...but i feel comfortable calling her ma...ok so i slept on the bus and i did not miss my stop..haha..so random ar...cos i donno how to continue....

we all went to the BBQ at east coast and reached there at 10pm...it's my cousin's 18th birthday...BBQ can do what? eat and BBQ lor...but did bond and crap with cousins....funny....it was really relaxing for me the whole night...i forgot all abt school! haha...

alot of moment we all thought of 11 nov...the last BBQ we all had before she got into an accident...and my 18th birthday..also BBQ...everyone just rmb n thought of her n talk about her....


if she is here, she can help my cousin prepare like how she helped me for my BBQ...(she enjoy doing all these and she is best at cooking delicious yummy mouth watering food!)

if she is here, as soon as she reach the BBQ pit, she will be busy unpacking all the food and prepare for BBQ, she will start to unroll the aluminium foil and start to wrap the corn, sweet potato, stingray etc....(my sanyi, ah li and i were talking about it on the van while to the park..) we were smiling following with sighs behind...hais....

if she is here, we all will be busy from the afternoon onwards...she will be preparing stingray! wrapping it with aluminium foil and the yummy chilli..haha...we will also be at the park by 5pm instead of 10pm..-.- (it's the first time that we start BBQ at such a late time!)


haha~..all memories with smiles and happiness with alot of sighs when thinking of it!!! she is always on our mind!!! sorry i cant help it and this is how much we all misses her...i wish to hear her voice once more! :/

*Medicine + Cream = Pimples-less soon..
*Late Night Sleep = Pimples FULL! how to have no pimples with every night late late late sleep~ ....

JIAYOU! rush hour every night

JIAYOU! haha...no choice but have to start with this...haha..yea everyone is telling me JIAYOU...and i'm telling everyone to JIAYOU too! haha..

ok last week's plan all changed....LOL...saturday i did not had any buffet lunch with cousins for unknown reason...they ps me...haha...my sister had to work and i ask her what abt the lunch and she said....huh got lunch meh? -.-" they are the ones who keep asking me to go for tt buffet...nvm we will set another date again...

recent night...rushing and rushing for the next day dateline...haha...and only sleep at 3am in the mrgn..haha...energy is draining but i have to keep myself at the HIGH ENERGY mindset...haha..sunday night my morale was very low and i think i couldn't do this and that and i did smthg stupid....and i disappoint someone and i really feel guilty, upset and i apologise for that....and thanks to those who 'kai dao' me....((= whatever it had happen is no longer that important anymore! what's important is i have to FIGHT on no matter what!

this whole week is rush hour! none of the day is relaxing and we could not afford to...haha...anyway i'm not the only one rushing, it's almost the whole BZE year3.2 students...hahaha...and ytd i'm nagging and complaining to Peizhen nonstop...haha...i just scolding the F word non stop....cos while rushing for the supply chain proposal last night, news of more datelines came....wa.....rush rush rush...stress stress stress...the clock keep tick-tock, tick-tock leh! wa rushing and stressing....

i found out i made alot of valuable friends...they really cheer me up...they called to help me to de-stress...they msn me online too...and others la...haha..and cancer people help each other to jiayou by sending Kisses, Muackz and Hugs online...those msn functions...and they really HUG in school today..out of no where in the middle of the road....haha..libra don do that...or shld i say only me? haha...

i only know i have become a cry baby and i only know how to cry...haha..ok everyone has their own way to make themselves feel better in stress situation...(=

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

i haven ahhh enough...the scream is still inside! i want to let go...i want to ahhhhhhhhhhhh.....!

the feeling is difficult to say out...i only know i don feel good now! arrgh!

Random: waiting for 7pm

currently in school waiting for time to pass...cos i'm meeting cindy 7pm at TM for dinner and to meet sinyee later too...not confirm if meeting chunwai cos he is a BUSY man....haha..

suppose to be doing MP but both of us are too tired to do...and i'm busy using my laptop, surfing the net and chatting on msn....i donno felicia is too tired or angry with me not doing project? haha..mindy and peizhen came to find us again and we chit-chatted till the rain stop...yes it is raining heavily just now...and i didnt bring my jacket with me to school! shit....now still feeling cold and trembling...haha...wear shorts some more! i deserve it ar! haha..felicia went home already so now i'm waiting for time to reach 7pm!!! dot...

tml will be having lunch with cousins....they wanted to eat sakae BUFFET...hais...eat again...haha..but i do enjoy eating! =X haha...weekend is tomorrow! haha...anybody from studying, working or in NS had been waiting for weekends! haha...ok so bored and random...

next week's schedule? BWP are we going out on tuesday evening after school or wednesday? wednesday night i have to attend BBQ so best is Tuesday k? haha...thursday is DEEPAVALI which means PUBLIC HOLIDAY! haha..i think i am going to have a family day! hehe..morning breakfast, afternoon shopping and evening visit to grandma followed by dinner with all my aunties and uncles?! haha...

i think tonight i will fall asleep very fast because i am very tired! my back still aches...i have been a walking vampire this whole morning in school....haha...brain was shut and couldn't get myself high or participating eagerly in any discussion....

we met Mr Teo for our MP...he seems optismistic about our project...haha...we have hope! HAHA!

boring boring...nobody is around to entertain me!!! tsk..haha...

let's buck up together my friends!!!((=