Mysteriously weird

i've already forgotten what i wants to blog about....

Work is still great cos i'm able to keep myself out of house and being busy...but last 2 days due to both (k508) Cindy and my high efficiency and effectiveness....we have got nothing to do after lunch! haha...in the end i've to go ard asking for jobs...LOL....


Thursday...

Work was fine in the mrgn until some unknown-out-of-nowhere sadness came...started missing her again..damn...That day I looked for my facial auntie and so she asked about her....hat can i always say when everybody ask how's her condition and all...

Everyone (who's concern and worried): how's your grandma?

Me (know everyone's concern but i cant say any other things): ha~ like that lor...waiting only...

and i thgt and hope she wun go any further like usually when she asked about her condition...but for this particular session, surprisingly she just continue and continue tho she had spotted my uncomfortable facial expression....that day is mysteriously weird cos i got the feeling that 'i dont care if u wanna hear anot, i just wants to continue...' yes she's giving me these feeling...i can feel something is trying to make me listen to what she got to say and get smthg into my stubborn brain to accept what it is!

Tears couldn't be hold back as images kept flashing pass, and it keep flowing out from the corner of my eyes and she just keep cleaning it away from me and didnt stop talking tho she knows i'm crying very jialatt already....at first i still thgt she wun be able to see the tears when it started flowing cos she's like so enthu in continous sharing with me her mother's story and she didnt stop hen i expected her to stop when she saw my tears....it's really weird....she just clean it for me and continue (that's when i know she can see my tears and she doesn't wants to stop).....

i know i know there's something or somebody donno where trying to help me in this thing....i've got this strong feeling but it's me myself....is myself that i can't or i don't want to accept...i'm like rejecting alot of your kind enlightening words....i appreciate it but i didnt know why i just cannot....i just cant....

she is telling me alot....alot are unpredictable...life...that's life....what she told me C*H really sucks! and i totally agree...haha..i was so concern about face where there's one moment i really couldn't hold myself and i really cry...and i quickly cam myself down thinking...Hey i'm not crying alone with nobody looking at....it's so shameful to unable to controm youself right...haha...and i deep breathe to stop that so ridiculous crying...haha...

and at the month end, it all started...another one...hais.........when will you stop fooling us?!!!

Schenker

Aiyoyoyo...i very lazy to update leh....

ok currently started working at new place...Schenker at ChangiSouth....woah fun...nice ppl nice evironment i like! *winks winks* (= lol...i take shuttle bus to the nearest station e'day after work...it gave me the Shanghai's smell and feeling!!! LOL...next the company's canteen...OMG...hahaha...yeah...Shanghai feeling...and the filing storeroom...Ahhhhhh...Felicia, Jasmine, SiewJie!!! REMEMBER?!?! we always slack there in the air con (old one) and the stuffy (new, in front of toilet de) store room...lol...we always chitchatt till shiok shiok!! hahaha...with those cupboards....hahaha...i enjoy gg to that place in Schenker can!! haha...and have been visiting toilet numerous times and got alot of times almost wanted to shout out and talk to the person beside my cubicle! LOOOOL...i guess i don't have to say what's the content right girls! HAHAHAHA...

Last week, FOC ended...with graduates cheering cheers of 05/06FO till 08/09FO!!! we all shouted 050****I GRADUATED!!!

my last last time of TP School Song!!!
*Temasek's Me, Temasek's You, We're a team~!

my last last time of Chicky Dance!!!
*Dede..dedede...Dede...dedede...De.....


my last last time of Tp MASS DANCE in the Sports Complex!!!!
*Meerrrrry MOooooorrrre...Open Open Close Close....


my last time of hand signature....
*There i see my Poly.....



LOL....05/06 FOC is the camp that marks my start of TP school life...I'm in the empire Krypton...Befriended HuiMin, Karine, Sharon, Ethel, Tobby, Seng, Jason, Cannonz etc....andthis camp really creates an impact on me...it makes me become more outgoing and i started constantly joining alot of school events...My TP LIFE is so colourful tho might not be as colourful as others....but i thgt it's already very RAINBOW enough to make me don wanna graduate, don wanna leave TP!!!

Life in TP is really great...i thought it was always the BEST POLYTECHNIC in Singapore!!! Imagine, this year's FOC participant are too much till TPSU got to reject them! Guess TP's name of having the greatest camp and friendliest polymates have spread really wide and far! haha...


haha...i have got no mood to continue further about graduation...maybe wait till one day certain hours where the feeling is there then i'll blog about it....((=

Dinner with Bwp

Met up with Bwp after both Sandy and Piwen got back from Japan, Kumamoto....dine at PS, Mathanan Fish? i donno how to spell la...smthg like FishnCo...chit-chatted..gossip, Jsxp, knct etc...both of them got each of us a 'FU' from Kumamoto's shrine...Vv of course got smthg that has got to do with her academic....Felicia smthg at family and health...KimBee's cos the 'FU' just suited her somehow but they donno wat's the meaning of it...lol...They got me smthg that have got to do with Love, r/s which they thgt i lack of...haha...it was cute la the thingy but it's just too pinky and girly for me...but THANKS la!! haha.. (=

Friends come, stay and go..Has Trust ever been there?

Misunderstanding cleared..(=


Sandy, pls don think you can read my mind, dont think you know what i'm thinking cos i can tel you, you'll never know what i'm thinking! cos i also don unstd my mind....

Tai Tai for a day...

Morning: Tanjong Pagar Interview

dragged myself up as early as 7.15am..bath and off to Novena to get my application form frm SPY cos she help me print...thanks ar! then rush to TanjongPagar....i've good sense of direction...haha...interviewed..tho i'm not tt keen....i didnt recieve their call...haha...cos my hp low batt for the whole afternoon...had Subway breakfast...Nice nice...travelled to CentralMall cos i wanted to go TheLegend at FortCanning for Guest Service Assistant walk in interview...still early so i slacked at Starbucks and played with my uncle's PSP for almost 2hrs...he lends to me cos his kid got to focus for exam..hehe...drank JavaChip and regretted cos too sweet...

Afternoon: TheLegend at FortCanning

near to time, i walked n figure my way to FortCanning and climbed the hill and steps under that big sun, passing those foreign workers with no other humans ard me....oh my...so dangerous...i majiam like pri sch kids or tourist having heritage trail...look at trees, insects etc...sweat of course! luckily i didnt wear heels...all thks to sandy for telling me to drop at ClarkQuay....shld have drop at PS and walk there...nearer and safer..haha...aiya k la i know u hao xin la...

reached, found out it's for permanent and no other offers for temporary position...left...well...ha...

while walking to the main road, tears almost come out cos upset...tho i'm prepared and have alr predicted that the offer shldn't be for temporary...and it's my carelessness that i didnt call before i came....but i didnt know why i just so stubborn n persistent and came all the way to walk in and try still with the hope yet knowing it'll be a sad outcome...silly huh...stupid right....before the tears can come out, i thgt it'll be damn real silly n stupid to cry over this matter...sooooo i hold on and swallow back all my tears....haha...i donno why i feel upset tho knowing all these....and i myself have alr predicted and prepare...while finding my way there, both my heart n mind constantly telling me it wun be a temporary job....but donno where this 'thingy' come from just tell me to go try n see and my leg just continue to walk n walk to the destination...hais...

THANKS SPY!!!

sms-ed SPY abt all this...and felt regreted...lol...cos it's so pai seh...hee...k i know ..... anyhow take a bus n see where it brings me to...dropped at Wheellock...went Borders, walked to Taka Kinokuniya...took a book and started reading...haha...surprisingly i read for 1-2hrs! LOL...it's amazing can! lol...the book is reallly too interesting for me...it lightens my mood...i smiled and laughed to myself while reading it...LOL...hahahaha...cos i totally agree to most of its content and i see myself in what the author describe...HAHA...so i bought the book and another jap book (which i've longed for)...reading tt interesting book and purchasing it...spending $60 really brightens my day! yup both books total up to that amount! ..... LOL...all females are the same! haha...i actually spent such huge amt on BOOKS! lol...(=

after that, i shopped ard Taka, Heeren and walked all the way to PS alone....with no hp, nobody able to reach me and only i could call them...haha...the feeling is so great! cos i feel so free like a bird! don care abt the ppl ard me....haha...woah...SHIOK! I'M LOVING IT! haha...first time which i actually enjoy so much of shopping alone...haha...i feel so Tai-Tai today cos all i do i slack, spent time wandering around and spend $$$....happen to come across this interesting and fun shop...MakeWithLove at PS Level 3....shopped inside very long cos trying to get some inspirations from there...haha...SECRET! BU NENG SUO DE MIMI!!! hehe...

ok e'tin seems so interesting to me today...haha..maybe there's some wire up in my head got connected wrongly...but tt's good cos at least i'm HAPPY! i'm feeling GAY! LOL...lalala....hahahaha...i'm so happy that i'm happy! ..... =D

7pm, met Sandy to ArtFriend, PastaMania dinner, joined her grp of JSXP friends...funny jokes and scenes at arcade...y ppl so enjoy gg arcade? LOH PI WEN thanks huh for your recommendation...but i enjoy SINGLEHOOD...and luckily Sandy is still the choice!!! LMAO!!!!!! met Cindy after her work and i bye to them...travel home...Cindy's tempting me to go MOS this saturday! shld i? shld i not?

SINYEE u very BUSY leh!!!

Oh today i did a good deed, i gave my seats to an old lady on the bus...lol...cos i usually don't and don't have tt courage....haha...smthg is reallly weird abt me not only today but for the past few days!

Yesterday::::

cos cos...i feel like there's smthg bothering me but i didnt know what is it...i just feel insecured and having the feeling that smthg is gonna take place...but i don't know what's tt...feeling kind of lost, donno what am i searching for..even if i knew what i need and wants, there's no pull force affecting me to encourage me...hmmm....this shld be due to my lack of determination...haha..

i know i'll get emo if i'm gg to let my mind anyhow 'fly'....so i cannot think anything but my mind is too free that i've to find things to think! ...... k contradicting and confusing...all the above symptons must be cause by being too bored from being too freee!

i control, contain, prevent cos i don wanna get emo or be sad...simply, i just wants to be happy.... ((=

but nth for me to be happy leh...mind body all wrong...wires all entangled...LOL...what exactly is botherin me huh? i know smthg is hiding somewhere in the head or heart trying to tell me smthg... dots i know...k conclusion, i'm really not the kind of Nua-At-Home person!

**Better Single Than Sorry by JenSchefft...

**Yakuza by ShokoTendo....

Recollection: Secondary School Years

Accompanied Cindy to get contact lense, LeeHwa interview...as usual i'm her mobile street directory...she just follow me...Did you open your BIG eyes and see where i'm gg? LOL...cos i thgt she and sinyee is always following blindly just like you, SPY! haha...ok she passed the interview but she decided to backout...haha... (=

Next, lunched and travelled to RafflesPlace SingtelBuilding with 2 donuts + bubble gum to find RonaldNg and YewSuan...haha...passed them the food, chatted till their head passby and we dismiss...haha...ok...YewSuan is finally at least BIGGER in physical...looks better...i thgt he's better looking than his before TekKo image! =X hahaha...Hmmm...RonaldNg, woah...near to 2yrs since i last saw him at Cindy's 18th Bday...Him...Gave me that...Ok become mature and got those ManSmell already...LOL...i mean the feeling he gave me la...omg...Wo men zhang da le!!! ...... haha...But there's still smthg both of them that remain the same la...haha...Anw hope to meet them up soon again! hehe.. =D


We slacked at CoffeeBean till ard 5pm...chatted alot..did alot of hui wei-ing and xiang dang nian! haha...we flew all the way back to sec1,2,3,4!!! haha...cant help it but to laugh at every small little details...HAHA...rumours...childish acts...unnecessary nonsense quarrels...teachers....etc. haha...was really really funny..i seldom do so much of recollections with cindy....at most the backtrack time will be just a few months back or back to year1 only....maybe now things changed...some or alot of miss-es here and there....trying to figure out what happen but it's just useless...



secondary 1....marvellous class combi of teachers + classmates....and i made a great friend...PSY..


secondary 2....woooh...chaotic complicated group...new friends....closer friendship with the guys...omg keep singing JayChou's songs...dot...i knew this new girl popping out of no where self intro herself to me, CLLB! LMAO...


secondary 3....haha...very glad ron,chris,amos still same class as me...new form of cliques....lotsa of memories....great class...i gave an oscar award to one dearest superb drama actor of esss...bazzare... (thinking back, i was silly)

secondary 4....that 3 guys still same class as me! lol...ys became my gossip crapping partner and caused me to always kana caught chattering and finally i got my seats changed to one corner sitting with fabian and amanda...haha...rumours...chaotic year....childish (haha, but who is mature at that time).. (=





* we still laughed and smile over your silly stupid funny entertaining acts....i recalled...ha-ha..all was redundant...cos in the end fate just brings this kind of ending to our story....but i'm glad my decision is right...i didnt regret anything..at least what i want to rmb is just all the happy moments...only happy images flash pass me....i smile....i'm glad... (= *

Of course, how would we miss out bgr?! haha...oh sinyee u miss it! haha...all abt cindy..haha..cos i've blank sheet still...HAHA...maybe i know the reason why...too persistent in own thinking? stubborn...'hard-hearted' and 'niao' in giving chances? tho now and then, loneliness or 'sian-ness of single' will suddenly pop out but they only last few days and i'm back to my happy single! LOL...in any way, i'm seriously happy with my free singlehood...unless otherwise any pop-ups, i'll then see how it is...haha... ((=

S.M.I.L.E =D

Vivi's 20th, Countdown

15thMarch2008, Saturday

It's another Saturday...this is gonna be a wonderful one...cos we are carrying out our long planned birthday surprise BBQ for Vivi...BUT it was all spoiled by one sms! ...... anyway great BBQ! Haha...so long didn't got any BBQ...hehe....was really fun..... HAPPY 20th VIVI !!

17thMarch ..... onwards

I was very extremely looking forward to this week cos first there's only 4 working days which is a bonus and happiness for all office workers can!! Lol....

Next is the new job interview which I've been looking forward to...

Next I could cut my hair after tahan-ing with the long fringe, messy out of shape bob hair! Haha..

Next is dinner with the Rangers at the CheesecakeCafe...Hehe...

Next Next Next is I can start packing my luggage!! Haha....

Lastly, the days to Bangkok trip is getting nearer (actually is the days to my last day of work)!! Lalala...hohoho....haha...

But I thgt things aren't gg very smooth..first there's some news about some idiotics traveling into my ears..which was arrgh....haha...next was extra stress abt choosing which courses for which uni upon knowing that the dateline is by end of the month..but I'm left with 30th and 31st to request the printing of transcript and all otherwise I've got to wait for next yr intake! .... shit...got advices from some friends and their words didn't comfort and make me more relax and calm...haha...

THANKS! ((=