all pass plsss!!!

ahhhhhhhhhh....

what is everybody doing? studying...hope not..haha..cos i've been watching tv whole day since ytd afternoon! haha...stupid moi so boring..esp chpt2! how to squeeze those details into my brain??? .... tml finally having the first paper, and the 2nd day will be my last day!!! hahaha..i mean last day of exams! hehe..last paper....and fun fun fun! lol...

i don wish much for this sem...just all pass? but have the thgt n feeling tt i might get supp for any of this 2 written papers! choi choi choi! touchwood! sometimes so scare being too positive will get unexpected negative results...lol...(=

haha..visit quite a no. of friends' blog..seems like i'm the most 'eng' (free) wan...almost 2 or 1 day there'll be a few new nonsense updates...haha...

To Felicia:
I WANNA GO TAIWAN!!!

weird dreams: miss water activities! (=

boring! unable to focus! haha.how how how? tue having moi liao! i haven study finish! haha..mls also..haha..ytd at hm while studying..i started playing with my hp...take alot of photos...haha...really bo liao leh...den at nite when meet my cousin, he saw all the pics den say i zi-lia...ya la i'm zi-lian...all cause by boredom!

this few nights always have some kind of weird dreams! haha..so always wants to continue sleeping to see what's the ending of the dream..haha..this explains why i've been waking up late these days...wahaha...really weird dream..seeing different groups of your frieds mixing and appearing in your dreams together! haha...so fun..lol...i think i miss water activities too much..(= cos i dreamt that i'm having some kind of water activities in school concourse level at ardblk 19 there...i think it's some kind of bizen event...hahaha...all body was so wet...haha...having fun in the dream so didnt want to wake up...hahaha...v bo liao and nonsense hor..hahaha..

online also nth to do nth to see..haha..y so boring wan! staying at hm continously for 3, 4 days is really boring! i cannot tahan this kind of life..haha...cannot focus cos the activities for holiday is like so fun and so make ppl looking forward to...hahaha...

so random...

mugging everyone? haha..don bluff!

for the past 2 days, i woke up only at ard 1pm...whr half of the day have already gone..haha...den study for 1-2hrs den lunch...haha...i cannot start eating k..cos i'll be stuck in front of the tv for 4-5hrs after eating! and will not continue with the revision untill the next day when i wake up again! haha...

boring life...waiting for the holidays!!! haha..gg to fill up the calendar asap! haha..sandy's chalet, sentosa trip, taiwan trip?, pri sch gathering?, helping out at orientation?...ya WATCH MOVIE! i've miss alot of movies liao! haha..alot of ??? cos not confirm but i'm gg to confirm it asap esp sentosa and tt taiwan trip! can't find kahki go taiwan....jieyi go ok!?

sandy leaving in 1 weeks time? haha..it will b my turn in another few months time! got to finish all the task tt is on my "before-gg-to-shanghai" list! ahhhh...haha..still long la hor...we'll sure miss singapore! (=

this whole entry is so random..haha..everyone jiayou for the exams k! (=

random-celebrities look alike

i've got nth better to do other than studying for next week's papers...haha...but i'm lazy..i rather go do below all these stupid thing...hahaha...


haha..maggie cheung and lucy liu again!



haha..piwen i look 75% like jay chou also! haha..omg 78% of anita mui! hahaha...wow 78% of Boa..hehe...ok had enough fun...this is entertaining when bored..haha..(=

CNY chuyi-chusan

DAI KA HOU, GONG HEI FA CHOI!!!

new year eve:

spent afternoon at paternal grandma's hse..ate poh pian as usual for every year...went to CGH to visit ah por and went back to her hse after that...had steamboat as dinner and mother decide to go hm instead of heading to temple...)= cos she's feeling tired...and i'm quite angry at her...cos i'm unable to go temple to spent my new year eve night there and see lion dance! den i'm angry with her and ignore her thrgout the journey back hm! i donno wat i'm angry about..cos my mum's feeling tired cos woke up early to help my grandpa prepare food to pray ancestors and all....so i shldn't be feeling angry if she wants to go hm and rest! but i'm just angry...

maybe cos i've been waiting for the eve night for very long..cos i enjoy watching lion dance and had not miss any CNY year's lion dance performance...but this year..haiz..doesn't have any good start..and was hoping that smthg nice can occur...den in the end wat i've been hoping for which might give me some CNY's feeling all gone! so sad and angry! in the end i dated sinyee chunwai adn daniel...cos i just feel so bu gan yuan tt my CNY eve is spent sleeping at hm!

oh ya...smthg minor occurs btw my 2 dear sec sch besties...gals pls don let this trival mini matter affect your CNY eve ma! haha...it's never good to be stuck in btw....it's worst when both are stubborn! hahaha...so wat can i do? give less comment and listen to both side nag lor...haha..


Chu Yi:

went paternal grandma's hse to eat..poh pian again..left over of ytd's....there's this belief that...durign CNY we can't waste food and must continue with the leftover food right? but of course if it's spoil...throw it away la! ... haha..

then again to ah por's hse to pray and eat again! hehe..spent the whole afternoon there slacking ard..visit ah por in the evening...met most of my aunties there and we went ahead to xiao yi's hse after visiting ah por at ard 8.30?

celebrated samantha's birthday..ate alot of CNY cookies...and my auntie was at there joking that she have to take some and keep inside her store in case we all eat finish her CNY goodies at the first day of CNY..wahaha...had yu sheng...we had an advance de la..haha..can't wait till Chu Qi...hehe..had blackjack...i won $2 starting with $0.20..wahaha...oh ya by the way we played by some amt....from $0.10 to $2...haha...

actually i took some pic using our lousy digital camera de...BUT....it was all deleted by my small ji siao cousin! i will upload this culprit's face when i'm free! haha..luckily i have my handphone! hehe..










Chu Er:

went to pasir ris and pray...proceed to ah por's hse after that....prayed ancestors and had lunch...delicious...yum yum....cos i very hungry..haha...alot of relatives came! i finally got that CNY feeling! haha..i was so happy...i took a nap while my cousin and aunties they all played blackjack...this year's CNY lack of mahjong's sound! cos my ah gong was not in the mood to play with us...)=

all went hospital in the evening together and all had dinner at ah suan auntie's hse...we were such a big grp la...making her hse seems so small..haha...went hm after that...was quite an enjoyable day... yea! =D


Chu San:

went sandy's place with vivi....evil sandy keep insisting to her ah ma tt i'm from vietnam! ...... had my fav bak kwa! haha...took bus 39 and took MRT to yishun....that MRT ride only last for a stop! cos of vivi's mistake to call us to drop at the wrong stop...-.- haha...met pi wen there and waited for aloysius..and he drove us to his hse...

ate non-stop..haha...the cookies were nice...and we watched the SCV while waiting for the other 3 person to come...justin from esss came...quite surprise that he know aloysius...so yup had steamboat and chatted alot...alot of disgusting story please! ahah...sinyee justin still rmb u! haha...he didnt not wan to act donno u or wat la..ahha...cos he asked abt u...asking if we still got stay in contact with u anot..haha..i almost say out, "of ocurse have la...i so close with her.." hahaha..

went Chun Dao He Pan at ard 9 by aloysius's car...omg...on the way there..i found out alot of eeerrr....abt joakim (clement, he is indeed proud!)! tt pink bag guy (he's a pervert!)! and some unknown weird bze senior....ok...chun dao he pan? don go! cheat ppl's money only lor...nth wan...last time wan is better...
From left: (forgot his name),sandy,vivi,me,piwen,aloysius, kk(i think so)...justin went to meet his gf so didnt join us...

Happy Valentine's Day!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL HAPPY SINGLES!

More pics at East Coast Park...



we pattern pattern only...like as if i know how to blade and as if mindy blades very well! haha..













I guess we're still wanted by peizhen sometimes...hahaha..



mindy,me,angel

angel,mindy,felicia (where's peizhen?)

neh here la! still got at where! wahaha...HAPPY SWEET VALENTINE'S DAY TO YOU TWO!!!Happy Valentine's Day to all couples! (=

i still unable to accept this fact! :'(

Today's thoughts~....

so i am attituding today...(pardon me if i did offend u in anyway!) in hospital quiet and feeling tired....don feel like talking...on my dad's car on the way hm also extremely quiet..don wanna involve in any conversations..while in sheng shiong, ppl who are blocking my way shld be frightened by my serious look....cos i'm feeling pek chek and keep TSK here and there....i think my period is coming...my dad ask me anything i either didnt ans or i'll just keep quiet and show him tt i'm not in the mood face....maybe he's trying to cheer me up but i didnt get affected by him...sunday tt day also like tt...he tried ji siao me...push me hit me....but i'm still in my own world with my own thinking....

i so feel like telling him i miss my grandma alot..and desperately ask him who can help her...but i didnt manage to open my mouth and ask him...cos as if he will know ans to my qn! i just kept quiet and keep all my thoughts to myself...that's a bad part of me...if i've any problem, i wun tell anyone and choose to shut up, worry myself and at there anyhow think and feel sad....

i really hate that driver who knocked her down...i know hating him doesn't help my grandma to wake up...but i just feel unfair that my grandma is lying in hospital now semi-unconscious in coma...cos she isn't ill before the accident and is perfectly living well and healthy...and just because of that idiot @#$%& bastard's reckless driving cause her to become like this...it's very unfair! why is this happening to her....i still cant accept this fact that my grandma is now lying in hospital..my mind is like in the situation where...everything ytd was like so fine and beautiful but today she's lying in the hospital...know what i mean?

i always thgt and feel very blessed that i have wonderful relatives with healthy grandparents....one whole big group always hanging out together..had alot of family gathering like bbq, parties, dinner or shopping trip together in a big group....always very noisy regardless at what place...but now like everywhr also so quiet....nobody has the time to go shopping...nobody has to mood to prepare to welcome CNY....we are not tt happy anymore...cos the lack of one person in the family really matters alot to us when the person is my mum and aunties' mother and we, grandchildren's grandma! it's not like we aren't close...cos of the closeness we all had with each other make this fact that difficult for me to accept! she's the one who brought me up...i miss sleeping with her and staying overnight at her hse...then she'll buy our fav kwap chap from downstairs wet market for me and my bro......

now i don dare to pass by grandma's hse nearby or even go her hse cos i very scare i cry and get emo and think alot again! hope CNY wun be spend crying!!! cos usually chu er will be spent at grandma's hse...hope my grandpa wun fall sick...cos he has been rushing to CGH and home everyday for this 1 mth plus plus...he must be feeling very gek xim....haiz....

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! :'(

procoi quiz2

procoi quiz 2 today..reach school at ard 11am to study with the angel they all...unstd almost everything...but the quiz is still difficult for us...haha...but i don tink i'll fail but pass borderly? haha..after quiz, did modsim..came up with the draft and tml gonna to try the real thing...

went to hospital to visit grandma...her stomach is opened and a tube is inserted and attached to it...while tube at the mouth was taken away...today the nurse tried to close the throat there de hole for 4 hrs to try to let her breathe on her own...every breath that she took is like quite tough and tedious...but she has to learn to breathe on her own...)= i tink tml gonna to let her try breathing on her own for 6hrs....hope everything goes well....(=

i'm wondering shld i cut my fringe..haha..and i haven go buy accessories to match my chu yi de black dress...maybe tml if got time i'll do that? but tml having meeting den osip briefing den alvin's b'day celebration...dot dot dot...tml is valentine's day...still have to help alvin celebrate b'day...nvm...anyway also don have valentine...so just chin cai make do with what programmes i'm having now...lol...

there is still some moment where i'll think of her and tears will auto flow out...i think cos my having emo-ness period...cos i felt that i'm attituding these days...tt day on the train so rude...den today got this guy came to find us do survey while we're doing modsim...so don feel like entertaining him...mindy and felicia filled up the forms while winna and i continue discuss...don intend to fill but mindy gave both of us one...so fill fill fill...untill contact no. both of us leave it blank...

Surveyor: y no contact? give la..cos i spend so much money on printing colours, give some face la...
Me: I don't think there's a need!
Surveyor: huh...then email la..give email...
Me: I still don think there's a need...we don't wan to give!
Surveyor: Huh..ok lor..nvm...thanks..

so irritating...cos while mindy and felicia is filling up the forms...he is at there talking alot of craps! like wat...wat drink u all wan? cappucino? mocha? frappacino? blah blah blah....nobody ans him..den he say ok la i also know you all don wan one, so i just ask ask for fun only...DOTS!!! wa so feel like calling him to shut up and chase him away...after asking about drinks...he asked if we want to eat anything? like cha siew bao etc....ARRGGGHHH!!! bo liao lor!!! what is he trying to do? trying to be funny? or humourous? sorry he failed! cant he just shut up and let us finish the survey fast and he just get off!!! we didnt invite him to sit down and he just sat beside mindy automatically! like as if we know him or very shou with him like tt!!! SIAO TA BO lor! smthg wrong with his mind! don unstd like why are there so many siao wan...

5rangers cycling outing!!!

Monday

didnt had any lesson so went cycling with angel mindy jordan felicia yq and pz at east coast park..relaxing...mindy and jordan blade while the others cycle...felicia tt kampong kia ride so fast! till i had a hard time chasing after her...now my upper thigh is aching! poor angel who is riding behind her almost kana heart attack due to the fast speed felicia is gg at! they rode the twin bike...got one moment angel's leg is like 'qui' qi lai...her legs are not on the paddle....cos felicia rode too fast till her legs cant catch up the speed also!!! wahaha...i riding behind them, laugh till cannot....LOL...

we rode to bedok jetty...took pictures...blow wind...haha..i mean enjoy the breeze..then to the ecp hawker centre and had some drinks...continue cycling to donno whr and we u-turn back...den we rest at a table..started playing with palm readings...see who is gg to be dependent on their spouse and who will be rich in the future...haha..felicia poor thing...very independent but no money...wahaha...hmmm..peizhen also don have very good....she's very dependent on her spouse!!! haha..aiya i believe yq can be a good husband! haha..

while waiting for jordan to go back to the bike rental shop to take titbits...i tried to learn to blade...fun but i still failed to make it...haha..after jordan returns, we sat on the rock...enj0y the breeze, ate titbits, chit chat, took photos....haha...thrg the chit-chatting session we manage to dig out somethings and also got to know each other better...was quite fun..

getting dark so we rode back to return bike and walk to parkway hawker centre for dinner...on the way there...we had this stupid bet again...whoever talks have to treat...haha..so we all didnt talk even we have settle down and have to go order food...haha...peizhen finally cant tahan and start talking! haha..the malay auntie sitting next to us was laughing cos we all were at there hand-signing to each other...lol...

jordan's dad lobang the 4 of us back...while tt couple took bus back themselves...jordan's dad was nice and friendly...too many of us and were so noisy...he even entertain us! haha...he kept thinking that we are from some SMU or SIM...haha...we told him we were jordan's classmates....this was when we've just drop mindy down...so when finally reaches my hse....he asked if i'm from SMU...dot dot dot..he still donno who are we! haha..so i just said, ' ya we ALL are jordans classmates!' wahaha..but heard from jordan today that cos he thgt i'm jordan's gf...i think jordan hang out with too many gals so he thgt anyone of us in his cab might be his son's gf...get too excited so didnt really pay attention to wat we say all along on the cab...wahaha...

studied procoi before gg to sleep...dark rings coming out le!!! haha..
recieve some of the photos...but still got some with peizhen!

i like this pic but it's taken too far..

Peizhen don need us anymore! :'( haha..


i have prove for the above statment wan k!
see she has yao qing liao! what are we? just 4 extra lamp posts only lor!

Finally the 7 of us!(=

i miss ah por!!!

I MISS MY GRANDMA!!! )'=

Sunday:
today's was a beautiful day with beautiful sky....woke up early to go praying with parents and bro...pray for grandma...i thgt today will be a wonderful day cos it's a family day! but all plans and thought were being screwed after praying....

the doctor called to call my mum go hospital fast so he could discuss some things with her...this issue is nth big actually...it's just need her signature before they can proceed with the operation...currently my grandma is tube feed with milk powder..the tube stretches all the way from the mouth to the stomach...it has ot be changed every month or else it will get infected and cause complications...so the doctor decided to open the stomach and put a bag into it...so proper food meal can be insert into it and feed my grandma...

she's getting skinny than before...her once big round tummy was now all gone...become so flat...when i reached, i saw her saliva over her shirt and the phlegm is ard her shirt! cos a hole is opened so that she can cough her phlegm out and wun cause any infection in the lungs or any breathing difficulties...but now the problem...the nurse aren't doing their job! my grandfather had called them to help her clean the phlegm and all...but they didnt do it! we waited quite long...so angry..what kind of service is that! what kind of hospital is this!?

we cant do anything cos only the nurses know how to clear the phlegm from the throat...but they didnt do it fast...and we can only wait there and my grandma just keep trying very ard to cough out the phlegm....i felt so helpless...i cant do anything to help reduce any discomfort in her and only thing is could do is to stand and wait and see her suffer there.....)'= it's really heartbreaking...i couldn't help it but cry...

after that listen to doctor talk...and doctors really nva lie...they're damn honest...they're like the doctors in the drama...talk alot of bad news (which i thgt it was) and added some good news at the back trying to console us that the situation isn't tt bad....the bad news that they are telling us is the truth...is not that they wan to scare us....but at tt moment i so hope that he could just tell us lies that my grandma will be fine and can wake up and all....so that i can stop my tears from flowing out....

he mentioned....:

1. it'll be a miracle if my grandma is able to wake up....miracle? in other words the chances are slim! if she cant wake up, i wouldn't be able to talk to my grandma anymore...i could not listen to her voice anymore!
2. she will not be back to like as she was before...she will be unable to walk and be a proper person...she wun be able to walk! will be on wheelchair....she might not be able to eat her fav food anymore....she will be feeling very sad for the case she is in!
3. if this 6 months she is recovering fast and good....then it will be not much worries after that...but if she's not....then it's really very difficult for her to recover...what can we do? pray and pray...but does it really help? i now really start to suspect do praying to gods help?
4. she might just stay like this forever for long term....she will be semi-conscious in coma forever....I DON'T WANT! we cant bring her hm to take care ourselves cos we aren't professionals...what if we made some mistakes and cause harm to her? putting her in some care centre is like so....i don't want to put her there alone! i know we'll be visiting her la...but it's like so lonely there..cos it's impossible that we stay 24hrs there with her!...

after this, we went bedok to buy mandarin orange with my grandpa...i totally have no mood...just feel so tired and feel like gg hm to sleep so wun think so much...bought ice-cream to eat thinking that ice-cream might cheer me up...but it didnt..in fact i'm fussy...i complained that the ice-cream was not the kind i want....feel really so unsatisfied..so went to buy another cup from another stall...it's still not the kind i want...but i lied to myself that it is...try deciving myself that i'm feeling better...but i didnt..cos when back on the car..on the way to my grandma's hse...the emotion come again....watery eyes again....tears just keep flowing out...

when reach her hse....i suddenly feel kind of stranger (陌生)to the hse...it's one month plus whr i have not step into the hse....the last visit is the day of her accident...i really miss the feeling that the hse can give to me whenever i go there...now i can no longer feel the feeling...i cant find it! something is missing! i'm very upset....as i walked into her room...seeing her things....the bed whr every weekend we'll go her hse and i'll just lie on her bed and take a nap...the scene of her sitting at her chair watching the tv....the scene whr she sleep and snores on her bed...the scene whr she's in the kitchen busy preparing food...her voice...her arguing with my grandpa...everything just flash in my mind...the fridge that is never empty is now really empty...with no food in it...cos her fridge will never be empty with us all these big eaters always visiting her hse every weekend! but now....everything is gone!!!

while sweeping the floor, my tears keep flowing la..cos i couldn' help it but thinks alot...like some kind of stepmum ill-treat me like tt...tears flow down as i sweep the floor....边扫地边流泪....i lied on her bed and cry....the nose is blocked....my eyes just couldn't stop crying.....when i'm young i'll always sit on her leg and lie on her chest to sleep after a tiring day out with her and family....it was very comfortable lying on her chest...i really miss her...i miss her voice...i miss her cookings...i miss talking to her...i miss her everything...

before today...i always have the thgt that everything will be fine and she will wake up soon..it's just that she takes a longer time...but....after listening to what the doctor had said...全部都被打破了!!! 才发觉我好像一直来好像都在骗自己!!! )'= why is this happening to her?

today is really not my day....i got jammed in the lift at my grandma's hse! for the past 20yrs my grandpa had stayed there....it's his first time got stuck in the lift....and for the 18 yrs i've always been gg there....it's also my first time stuck there....i was like...wth...it's like somebody trying to make a fool of us lor....i'm already feeling so bad and this suay thing still happen! the lift only just service only lor! and the person just left also! then after sometime of trying to open the door by my dad at outside...the lift open itself...see it's so weird right...like somebody making a fool of us...

I MISS AH POR!!! I MISS MY GRANDMA!!! I MISS AH POR!!! I MISS MY GRANDMA!!!

I MISS YOU, AH POR!!! )'=

self-reflections..

Saturday:

Woke up at late mrgn…helped mum to clean hse…went maple clinic to see doctor on my face…waited for almost 3hrs before it’s my turn! Damn long….so many ppl and each patient consultation time can take up to 10mins each…dots…wait till v tired…paid $96.50 consultation and medication by nets and my mum’s $52 cream also…EXPENSIVE!

I really have to say…guys always only look for you when they needed your help! Cos while waiting for my turn in the clinic…I received chun wai’s sms…felt weird and surprise…cos he doesn’t sms me nor will he reply my sms…so I open the sms…and the content is…hey do you wan pineapple tarts? ….DOTS! cos he’s currently helping ppl to sell pineapple tarts….气死人! Angry lor! Haha..So I just replied no to him…lying that nobody in my hse eats pineapple tarts…actually got ppl eat la...but the thgt of my grandma’s situation, this year like no CNY celebration nor atmosphere also…so I thgt there isn’t a need to buy pineapple tarts…

Guys always look for you when they need you…otherwise…where the hell are they at? They might not even think of you right!?
When you needed them, where have he gone to? 当你需要他时,他都死到哪里去了呢?
So disappointing to see this happening….真是太令人失望了!

Sandy maybe that’s why I keep telling you I wldn’t accept or will want him anymore…cos I don feel the importance of me in him and cant feel that he has real feelings for me…feel like I’m just some kind of replacement or wat ba…like just to kill his time like that….already don wanna to pin any more hopes on him anymore…cindy this is also to you…so unstd?

When they’re into you…you’ll get to see them and receive as much concern as they have for you…but when it’s over or they have another target….ha…ha…ha…ppl where are they man!? Hahaha…less contact…can’t they still be friends with the gal? I mean why cant they treat the gal like his other gal friends? Why must like no contact or like giving the feeling that they just simply wants to lose contact with you and have nth to do with you anymore? Haha…weird right…got abit too much right? But that’s how this thingy works though it’s a bad way of handling it….and the truth is the world is never fair to anyone….)=

I have decided not to join AR due to some personal reason and the thgt that I can have more time for other activities…
I’m petty in certain thing….trying hard to forget and forgive….

I think my character is getting worst…petty, small heart, bad attitude, impulsive, mean mouth, calculative etc….

i'm getting worst!

Friday:
Yesterday was baking cookies session with sandy and gang…it was not quite successful right? Haha..cos we got bored while waiting for the oven to bake the cookies…haha..so watch scv programmes, talk and they played with that dog in my hse..-.-"

The day started with breakfast at TM’s Mac followed by buying ingredients at NTUC…after this, we head to my hse…while walking to interchange smthg occurred!!! Shldn’t say it now…if not might get some unwanted attention…I’ll say it when it’s over..haha..back at my hse….for the first 1 whole hr is screamings and screamings!!! DOTS! Cos sandy, kimbee and vivi got very frightened by that dog’s barking…-.-" so we’re all hiding in my room waiting for Felicia to come…k so finally Felicia came…and now there’s an additional person’s screaming! …….

So the 4 of them have been screaming non-stop…until they had decided to heed my bro’s advice to let the dog sniff and lick for awhile…so everyone did let her lick except Felicia! … donno what she’s so scare of…I mean that dog doesn’t bite, it’s only that she has a fierce barking only…so she doesn’t bark the others already except Felicia! And Felicia was damn afraid of dogs where it’s like if you give her a chair she will just stand right on the chair and don move!

Like those cartoon where they see rats and will jump onto the chair like this…ya she’s tt afraid of her…so she moves ard very carefully so that the dog wun notice her….cos she thgt she’s small and insignificant enough that my dog is blind, wun be able to notice her! Haha…bth..after sometime finally the dog get to sniff and lick her…but she still act the same..dot…

however donno why she suddenly get so excited with the dog…she played and ka jiao the dog…keep turning rounds ard us…till sandy and I got uneasy and feel like vomiting…really..we get unwell….she just wun stop ka jiao-ing the dog…den my hse at that moment was like so noisy la! I never feel my hse that noisy before till I cant tahan and ordered Felicia to sit down and stop playing with the dog…cos if she had stop playing with the dog, the dog will get some rest and quiet down…cos they keep complaining why the dog not tired wan and wun quiet down de where Felicia is playing and running ard with her continuously!!!

The baking session ends…Other than Felicia, we all went out for dinner at taka’s pepper lunch…the queue was long but waiting time was short...haha..oh ya…while the train was very packed and squeezy also…so it’s necessary for some ppl that are standing at the door to get out first before the ppl inside can alight the train…soooo…when the train reaches somerset and it’s time for us to get down…the guy standing in front of me is blocking the way..he’s standing at there like some tree….donno how to move wan leh! Pek chek….

All of us (sandy.vivi and piwen): excuse me..excuse me! Excuse me….
He doesn’t listen! Soooo I said…….
Me: Can you please get out first? (showing him that angry and frustrated face)
He then decided to move out and let us get out of the train…
Me: THANK YOU! (stern and firm)

Ah lian’s attitude huh? But he’s blocking our way though he knows we’re getting down the train…blockhead!

Went far east…piwen looking for some stuff…sandy was getting tired cos we woke up quite early today…no energy after the baking session…haha..went hm at ard 10….while walking towards the MRT station…we were chatting abt some stuffs…and remind me of an incident that happen during yr1.1 when I first entered TP…I felt so guilty…

This incident occurs at a takaewondo cca trial session…where I’m quite interested in tkd so I pulled sandy along to join with me…and…we went for the trial…did some PT and stretching den listen to the coach talk abt tkd and all….soooo…after listening for quite some time, I know what are the requirements and criteria to be in tkd and all…

Coach: ok do you all have any qn?
I raised my hand…
Me: Can I go?
Coach: go whr? Toilet? Ok go..
Me: no go off...go home…

The coach tio stun and let me off…so I stand up and walk away…hahaha..then sandy still in the moment of shock at my action…she just followed me also…hahaha…so we went to wear our shoes…then at the same time, the coach gave the others toilet break…haha..and he called some senior to come over and talk to us…I rmb the senior saying that the coach think that we’ve the potential so hope that we can think abt it….haha..i’m quite surprise and happy to hear what the coach think abt us la…but my mind just tell me to get out of the sports hall asap…haha..so we aren’t persuaded by the senior and we go hm…

Until now I sometimes still heard vivi mentioning that one of her senior will never forget this person walk off like this….then I’m always like..opps! and didn’t really care abt it…but ytd…I suddenly felt so guilty about my action….thinking back I felt that I’m being too much at that moment doing this….didnt know why I did that…maybe cos after hearing the coach’s expectation and all…I think that I unable to make it and might not be able to commit to it so I rather be frank to the coach in the first place rather than staying on and give him hope or if not not being committed and always skip trainings…right?

Cos I rmb v clearly that he said getting the black belt is just only the starting to getting the other colour belt…which means below black are all the foundation and all…so I thgt if I joined tkd….i only get a black belt for tt 3yrs in poly cos I don have any basic foundation abt tkd before..and I don tink I’ll continue to pursue getting higher belt level after poly…so I decided not to waste my time and other ppl’s time…cos they deserve it better than me as some of them already have tt basic there…

Ppl attitude right me? I’m too much right? 很过份hor? I’m too impulsive right? 太冲动了hor? Haiz…so guilty leh…how ar? So on the way hm..i became so quiet and didn’t talk much…before that I’m like bird like that so chatty…then sandy n vivi like mute like that didn’t talk much…on the way hm, it became the opposite…)= 我感到很惭愧! 这么办? Why am I always so impulsive? Bad habit and attitude…Where is the commitment I had in sec sch NPCC? I can do it in NPCC and why not in tkd? Whr is that determination? getting worst huh me? ….

Seems like I got lost a lot of times after entering poly….always questioning myself and finding the direction of my own life…I’m like in a maze, kana stuck somewhere and couldn’t find the way out…so far I still unable to find my way out…still using the try and error method to hope to find my way out of the maze…so can I say I start questioning about my own direction of life only in polytechnic? That’s quite late right? Slow progress huh? I still cannot find it when I’m near to graduation in a year time……)= ??? haiz..

picnic on monday!

today is relaxing day...i've been gg to school with a plastic file only recently..lol..too relax already...haha..but was rushing in the mrgn...cos i woke up late at ard 7.30 whr the lesson starts at 8! haha...luckily got felicia's dad to drive us to school...haha...was so rush cos we thgt the test starts at 8....but it didnt..haha..it starts only at the last hr of the tutorial...orgcom test was fine! hehe..

after tutorial, angel pz jordan felicia and i went to bizpark for breakfast....we slack ard there and went to library to look for past yr papers to photocopy...haha...so while printing the papers at level8..we chat abt our evil lousy brother! haha..and the champion for the most evil brother goes to......JORDAN'S brother!!! wahaha...he's very violent ad is pervertic! hahaha..i mean pervert as in being too violent le...haha..

we printed alot of sets though it's only 2 subjects...haha...MLS's paper was thick la!!! after printing went to meet carol for apel cos we didnt have it ytd..haha..and she treat us chocolates again! haha..like almost every apel lesson she sure have smthg for us...haha..

went hm after that and monday's picnic is still on..haha..it was set whr everyone just bring anything they want for they want for the picnic..tml baking cookies in the mrgn with sandy vivi piwen kb and felicia...haha..afternoon shopping trip with angel they all!!! haha..(=

ltr gg to trim eyebrown at 201...den go hospital...den go see doctor! haha...

NEVER BE TOO SOFT-HEARTED TO ANYONE!

before the war:

lalala..so happy and relax, thinking everything gg to end fast within few minutes...

DURING the war:

@#$%&^ are all in my mind! tensions at every corner of the room! and stupid GUAN AH HOON still can laugh when we were like arguing like hell whr tables and chairs were nearly being moved and thrown ard!!! some ppl are stubborn and not giving any way out unless they find their way out!

after the war:

speechless...see no point in arguing further cos there wld be no point and i see no end to the arguments...someone just wants to get her way out...if nobody compromise and let her get her way out, then we'll make a history of closing meeting that lasted for like donno how many hours! felt somehow quite betrayed...disappointed in ourselves and some friend...friendships strain...somehow also kana affected...everyone just hope things will turn out fine after sometimes...but will it? donno...just try and see......

CONCLUSION:

GUAN AH HOON is still HATED by me! I still NEVER like GUAN AH HOON!!!

anyone can say this version of things in front of you and say another version for another person! so there's nobody or few whom you can trust! the best ans that someone can give is....depends lor...since it's the case of depends..

THEN...WHAT ARE WE ARGUING AND UNHAPPY ABOUT???

MORALE (LESSON LEARNT):

NEVER be too soft-hearted or kind to anyone thinking that they will the same to you!

NO WAY! in your dreams man!

the society is cruel, evil and SELFISH!

jiang gian po's hair!

today gg to school is like more of bonding with classmates? ahahah...cos there's only one lect! and the lect is at 2pm...went to that lect cos thinking that there's lab after it..but the lab was known to be cancelled during the lect...dots rite..haha...but it's more dots for felicia...she's late and by the time she reached the lect, the teacher has left the lect! wahaha...the lect only lasted for ard 15-2omins...lol...it's just only about the exam format and some hints for us....i went to school only with a file and was so relax...

actually not bonding with classmates la...more of getting updates about the class! hahaha..mindy updated me about our class gg-to-be couple's progress....it was fun listening to their updates..haha..everyone was very happy for their fast progress but they still aren't together...i can somehow feel why the lady is acting tt way...sometimes hot sometimes cold....but we cant help it...only till the lady had sort out her thinking and feelings...she just needed more confirmation about her own feelings...she's scare and worried ba....maybe we shldn't push her too much in case it turns out bad....haha..

oh ya ppl do you all see any weird creature with golden dyed hair...and the hair style is weird, half-cut and with some blue triangles at the side of his head...hahaha...tt's jiang gian po! jashua whom i have been talking about the past entries...haha...his hair really omg lor....he's very daring sia...always so unique with his hair style...haha...stare at him all you want cos since he had cut this kind of weird cool hair style, then he must have already prepared stares from ppl...hahaha...damn funny and shocked when see him...lol..

oh ya...mindy and i had decided to have our own night cycling this sunday after unable to join the ac's night cycling event....haha...we are angels k! cos we have positive motive for organising our very own night cycling de! haha...so this sunday, mindy, felicia, angel, me, peizhen and yaoqing(the gg-to-be couple) will be gg for night cycling...but the route has not been planned yet! haha..gonna discuss with mindy tml...and maybe ask ard who wanna to join us also? haha...

tml gonna wear formal again for the closing meeting for ISO...mediacorps had find us to act another scene again..maybe we had acted too well in the previous scene ba...haha...k lame...
hope tml's meeting doesn't become a fight or the arena (debate show on channel5)..haha..cant help thinking this way cos of the type of character my classmate had...like what he had commented today in the lect...didnt know his words was meant for who..winna? jordan?

Schedule for this week:

Monday: nothing
Tuesday: ISO closing meeting, MLS quiz2
Wednesday: Procoi lab test, Htm quiz2
Thursday: meeting cindy n gang ba? (yet to be confirmed)
Friday: baking cookies at my hse? (yet to be confirmed)
Saturday: currently nth on...or maybe gg out with max they all? will see when saturday comes...
Sunday: meeting sinyee? (donno yet, maybe will have some last min changes?)

*i'm not homesick...i don miss hm at all...rather be hanging outside than staying at hm...feeling emo ba? and feeling lonely?
一直在怀念。。一些东西，一些事情。。。(= *

there still no slight CNY atmosphere!

after friday's shopping trip...and after what sandy had said....cos thgt of watching Louis Koo's "Happy Birthday"...but felt weird to watch it together and ltr both were like crying becos of the sad ending...and sandy felt like she's like so les always with me...and i'm like...hey oh please! if u're les den what am i? cos i'm not only always own world with her but also with felicia...like that i'm more les rite! so i shld consider changing to liking gals instead of boys ba? haha..

make me feel that smthg is really not right with me like that..haha...but that's not les lor if you think it another way...what's to think another way? haha..i also donno..lol...cant think of excuses to avoid being say les leh...haha..aiya go find your who who to watch that movie with you la! haha..like i want to watch with you like that! haha..



** i miss my grandma's cooking and her voice! i miss eating homecook food...mummy also didnt cook cos everyday have to go visit grandma and doesn't have the time to cook...everyday had been eating outside food...i also miss gg my grandma's place...)'=

i dreamt of talking to her non stop...even told her i'm gg for a hair cut tt time...haha..so silly...i still cant feel any slight chinese new year atmosphere though it's only 2 weeks away...everything just not right everywhere....if nth happen on the 2nd day of new year, we all will be helping grandparents to clean their house...making chinese new year cookies...chinese new year will be spent together at their hse having eating marathon, playing card games, eating steamboat, chatting and watching cny special programmes.....
haha...thinking too much...everything can still go on as usual but it's just somehow different with someone missing from the family....ahhhhhhhhh!**

sandy spent $180++

Saturday:

i accompany sandy to funan IT mall to return her working pass and get her $10 deposit back...went marina sq..her buying starts again..bought a pant from topshop, a braclet from miss selphige? (donno how to spell la), a top from zara and a blush from the Make-up shop...i'm not feeling quite well so didnt really pay attention to looking at things...haha..and she kept suspecting that smthg is not right about me all the way from marina sq to orchard...next she complains that i'm not buying anything and it's not like me...when did i always will or must buy smthg if i'm out shopping? and when did i like just grab and pay w/o thinking for things i like...haha..you are then the weird one sandy tan shan di! crazy...keep saying i weird weird and 怪怪 de...

i was laming with her the whole day when with her...she says that i'm lame but she only realise that it's lame after finish laughing..so that's not lame..it's funny...haha..i discover she had spent $160++ at my first calculation...so i thgt at least got some improvment from ytd's $178 so i kept sarcasticly call her to keep up the good work...but i realise i miss out some item..so after adding those items, her amount spent for that day is $180++!!! wahaha....

sandy spent $178

Friday:

had modsim graded lab and had final discussion on closing meeting of ISO...felicia and i thgt of joining night cycling upon seeing the poster at the SAA notice board..so went to check it out at the booth...found out from ivan that it's the last day of registration and with left limited space...so we 2 quickly go jio ppl join together...so we managed to jio mindy, jordan, pz and yq...when signing up, they say not enough space but they'll help us reserve the place first...have to wait till mon then can know if there's place for us anot..haha..

after that, i went to meet sandy, piwen and kb...while waiting for vivi to settle her ISO thingy with some evil and jian twins, we went to visit e2...had been a long time since i've step into e2..haha..almost everyone of them called me ah lian! ... donno they got 讲好的 or what..all call me the same name lor...but i insist that i don't look like one..haha..crap ard inside and meet vivi after that..took bus23 to bugis w/o kb...

wa alot of ppl at bugis la..very scary..vivi and i went to the hawker centre to buy some food to munch on while sandy and piwen inside the shop trying bottoms...haha..den so many ppl who walked past kept lookin at we 2 la...donno what's so nice to look at...got signboard say cannot stand along the street and eat there meh? haha..

i saw mindy conincidentally at bugis street! haha..almost cant recognise each other..also donno why though we've spent that whole mrgn in modsim lab together...haha..damn funny..so sam phat and excited when we saw each other..haha..

sandy bought 2 books from kinokuniya...i enj0y looking at those jap magazines there..haha...this interest only started after jsxp! hahaha..abit kua zhang ar...but..ya lor...tt's so kua zhang lor..haha...jsxp is quite a great impact to me...haha...though i cant really recognise which jap star is this or that cos they look all the same to me! haha..i mea it doesn't matter what is their name..they all just look...wow.....帅! 有幸! wahahaha...

went wisma, zara, far east and heeren...sandy bought quite amount of things...her hand carries at least one bag from all the places we've had went to...haha...i bought a pair of heels from parade! wahaha...i enj0y buying shoes! i was quite moody and feeling tired before that....i can only find myself being happy when i'm trying shoes! hehe...had this bad habit of buying shoes...haha...sandy keep mentioning i can be like the channel8, 7pm show, tt actress, yoyo....when feeling upset, must buy shoes to make myself happy..haha...if i have a rich bf and rich family like hers, i would also like to do so...ahaha..we also bought some handicraft thingy to DIY necklace...

i helped sandy to calculate the amount spent...and it was $178 w/o including eating k...haa..vivi and i keep emphazing the amount she had spent while on the train way home...haha..trying to make her feel guilty....

direct chinese translate of english name

should i blog about ytd's issues? ok maybe a brief wan on tt issue...

ytd got this classmate of mine, CAI ZHI HENG, played a very bo liao prank on me..which makes me feel so sorry to my juniors! sorry not i want to keep changing my words! so damn angry! nvm forget it cos he always so bo liao...one day without disturbing me is like hell for him...i not angry at the prank that he had played on me...is the trouble part which i had and had cause inconvenience to the others who are affected by it...felt so sorry and pai seh...d0ts...

after clearing the misunderstanding with my juniors i went to get prepare for the HTM presentation...wore formal again...i didnt wash my fomal after wearing it the previous day cos i've insufficient time to do so..haha..so wat i did was to spray some perfume on it..hehe..anyway it's also not that smelly even if it's w/o the perfume...we changed in engine sch's toilet cos biz's sch toilet is too small and it's always wet and quite dirty...it's the truth! even though i always see the 'cleaning in process' sign outside the toilet whenever i need to use....the toilet is still not very clean! haha..

overall presentation was alright...but i don unstd what can that bunch of bengs in my class can say about us? cos while jieyi is presenting, they keep talking and laughing..when it's my turn, they said smthg like,'对对, 这个这个! (ya ya this wan...)' -.-" so irritating...so when it's turn, we did th same thing back...but jieyi and i aren't as power as felicia...she really know how to fake laugh sia! haha...i can't so only laugh when there's some funny comments...haha..


today is orgcom presentation..felicia and i woke up late forgetting that today's lesson start at 8 instead of 9..haha..but we didnt panick nor hurry to school...we bathed and went to school at 8! haha..luckily our grp is presenting last...but when reached school, i panick! cos i haven prepare my own notes for the slides and i have forgotten what i've wrote in te report...though there's enough time for me to prepare....i'm still nervous...so in the end i stattered all the way, talking nonsense and i didnt know what i'm talking about! @#%$& quite angry with myself...so i screwed my own part!

met sandy...so we updated each other past few days de life...wahaha..so damn funny...we came up alot of direct translate name for some ppl...

• max = 马事
• lex = 拉屎
• benedit = 班那迪/班呢迪
• anthony = 安东尼 ( looking at tt person u'll laugh non-stop while thinking of this name!)
• sharon = 杀人
• peter = 笔德
• nurul = 怒路 (felicia helped nurul think wan..that time during mls tutorial)

cos sandy was mentioning about smthg and she call max, 马事 and we find it quite funny..cos the next name that she had mention is in english..and it sounded weird...lol..so we thgt of direct translate names for the benedit...wahaha..

went procoi lect...yeah today is the last lect for procoi! haha..after that felicia and i went TM..bought some preserve plum after eating...very nice..haha..den shop ard, talking and bought some stuff...now back at hm...gg to take a nap soon and visit my grandma ltr...