Ben's & Jerry YUM YUM!!! (=

i finished tt tub of ice-cream ytd...haha..yum yum!!!

just now i cooked lunch with tt jap curry thingy...not spicy at all, maybe too much water added...cos the gravy is not tt sticky as expected...nvm try again next time! haha..

gg visit grandma ltr in the evening...might be meeting cindy after tt....chatting session again i think..lol...

tml gg pray my (ah gong) father's father at cemetry...den to get some necessary stuff den to visit grandma...

sunday gg to pray ancestors at some temple...den to continue buying some things and gg to clean grandparents' hse....den to visit grandma...

there goes vivi & kb

mood was better after meeting vivi felicia and kim bee...was laughing and joking as soon as i saw them..haha...there goes vivi and kim bee to cambodia...vivi's luggage overload by 5kg..lol..better than sandy's (11kg)...lol...haha..next will be jieyi on 2nd of may...when's our turn???(june -.-") keep sending ppl off or..so dots! felicia and i went to the staff canteen and had our dinner...we were at there updating each other our past few weeks life and all..lol..

next to giant...tt newly opened wan...not bad..it's big and was similar to jb's giant...k so shop shop and i bought one tub of Ben's and Jerry's ice-cream@ $9.95, one both of $4 sushi and one box of those japan curry cube! lol..

now back at hm! friends do matter! they brightens my day! (=

irresponsible of me!

it's very irresponsible of me to not attend elf...even though i've alr reached sch....i just went hm....i donno....i donno if i'm just using the excuse of worryign for my grandma so i didnt want to attend elf and don want to....i know i'm just giving myself excuse....i've the choice to go elf but i choose not to...i didnt know why la....getting too emo....gan qing yong shi.....tt's so attitude! )=

visiting her ltr and gg to send vivi n kimbee off to cambodia for OSIP....they'll be back in 2mths ltr....and felicia and i are still not in shanghai....hais...

what's becoming of me? what's happening? i only know i'm still unable to accept this fact....i.....really....she is leaving us very soon and i cant bear to let her go....)'=

hais....waiting...)'=

cindy i might not be able to pei you this whole week le.....cos i need spend more time with my grandma....wanna go club or drink i also cant go liao...hais...

i'm still unable and unwilling to accept this ridiculous unreasonble fact...i'm still wonderin why is this happening to her?! why is she the one?! i'm still feeling very unfair for her....she didnt do anything to suffer all this right? did she? wth is happening? isn't there always this saying good ppl will ba good while bad ppl will have their retribution?

好人不是应该有好报的吗? 现在是这样啊?

一个把我从小养到大的外婆, 躺在医院, 不能动, 不能说话...我们没有能做的, 帮也帮不到他! 每天只能在那唉声叹气, 在那哭! 咳...!

什么都不能做...只能等! hais...

don't watch pathfinder

People if you call me to intro new nice movie...i wun know which is nice...but if you call me to intro bad movie....i think Pathfinder is wan....too naggy and boring...not nice wan....if i had know i'll watch mr bean's holiday...

maybe tt's my next movie and tmnt too..LOL....now watching Bai Fen Bai...omg so funny! but i find lollipop too kiddy but ao quan and tt donno what name de guy is cute! lol...haha...k some random entry...!

vivo city de cinema is nth special...same as other theatre...lol...(=

i want to see kumamoto's photos!!!

today cos of my laziness to travel till yio chu kang, i didnt visit her...tml also not gg to cos i'll be gg out...maybe wed den i go...

now msn-ing with alvin to find out more abt kumamoto trip! omg i really want to see all his pictures that are taken there! i wan to see how much the jappies had changed! i heard they all didnt cut hair and their hair now is long...LOL!

i want to see the photos!!! arrrggghhhh...y didnt i go kumamoto!!! arrgghhh...TSK!

ppl we shld take more photos when you're getting old...regardless it is as a memorance or wat so ever...cos my family is now having difficulty to find a nice photo for my grandma....need smthg which is clear and sharp...but so far all we had found are kana rejected by the film developer.... hais...donno what to do now....

(=

sunday = boring day!

sunday = boring day!

tues, felicia is having driving test! hope she can pass her driving! she's making e'one of her friends to stress with her! nervous with her together lor! haha...

a very random entry to wish felicia good luck for her driving! haha...i'm now watching gokusen on youtube....i miss the jappies!!! regret not gg kumamoto!

GOOD LUCK FELICIA! YOU CAN DO IT! prove to the lkk that u can do it to make his passing rate higher by one person! haha..(=

angry with him! wtf!

today went orchard shopping with mindy angel n jordan...
saw piwen and her family...
ate at coffee club.....
mindy bought a black tube, necklace from flea market and red earth eye shadow...
angel bought missah nail polish and a choquer from flea market...
i bought another pair of new shoe again! wahaha!!! hee....

next on my tag board i might see vivi's tag say me buy shoe again...when sandy and felicia got contact me...they'll say me too! hahaha...hey but it's v cheap la....$15.90 only! sandy i cant tahan till go shanghai then buy le seeing the price on every pair of shoes is like so cheap!!! haha..

i'm angry with someone today! wth....arrgh...wa angry lor! TSK! don worry mindy angel n jordan...it's not u all....tt's y i got one moment i didnt talk much...after i've eaten and buying shoe i feel more happy..haha..

now msn-ing with max to find out how's their kumamoto trip!!! ahhhhhh.....they had lots of fun! i regret not gg!!! i miss the jappies!!!! ahhhhhh!!! wahaha...(=

first time chatting with him so long

Thursday:
visit grandma and meet cindy n cliques after returning back hm...so meet cindy sinyee chunwai ah jon and wenqi.....cos wenqi's ah gong pass away....then chat lor...
back hm thgt of sleeping alr but sinyee called...den kana interrupted by cheong chun wai!!! -.-" and i chatted with him till ard 3am while sinyee hung up soon after he call...dots....

Friday:
i woke up at ard 7.30am in the mrgn! i slept only for like ard 4hrs? cos i've to go grandma hse to help my grandparents and aid my mum in preparing to pray the ancestors..... ..... i'm so tired! then i keep complaining to my 12 yr old cousin i'm v tired....i told him i chat on the phone till 3am...

Nicholas (cousin): u talk t your boyfriend ar?
Me: NO...friend...
Nicholas: then your own problem la u can don chat de ma..(meaning since he's no my bf, i can don chat with him till so late de ma...)

....ya lor...then i go think abt it....what he say is true...
at night ard 10.30, meet cindy n sinyee at tmart...both of them not good mood got things to complain...lol...so in the end we had our ladies talk...lol...chat till 2am lor...wa i'm gg to faint...lol...cindy suggest to make every friday as our ladies talk night...haha...

crying almost everyday...)'=

felicia still rmb tt time when we first know we gonna go for OSIP, i keep telling you tt i'm worried abt elderly stuff....den i donno why i so worried...now i rmb abt this n know le...hais...

i'm skipping elf tml for i have no mood for it and i'll be whole day unattentive while doing my job....so i might as well don go in case while belaing or suppose to look after the ppl who belay....i didnt pay attention then i jialatt!

time to learn to let go?

time to learn to let go?

time to know how to accept the fact?

time to learn to accept the fact?

can i don't accept the fact?

can i don't learn?!

i want to go back to the times whr we cousins are small little kids....always gg grandma's hse....staying overnight at her hse......always gg out with her....whr all parents are still young, whr grandparents are healthy and the family is perfectly happy with no fear and troubles......

i don't want to let her go...i know it might be better to let her go...cos she's suffering now...lying on the bed....wants to talk but she can't.....hais....ahhhhhhhhhhhh...!!!

i don't want! I DON'T WANT!
i know i'm being childish in this issue......i.....hais....

i always thgt none of my family members will leave me fast...maybe even till when all cousins were married.....now....i know i'm too naive....i never know what is family members will leave you one day....i know nth abt it.....all these only appears in drama to me.....it doesn't apply to my family....

previously i'll worried for my grandpa that he might go one day......it never occurs to me tt my grandma might leave me early.......now......

is it really time to let her go? but i don't want! i want her to stay with us!

i really rather she's lying on the bed and wait for years for her to recover, everyday still carrying the hope that she'll be able to move one day than to let her go just like this!

i know i'm selfish..... ....... i want to hear her voice again! i miss her voice! ......

*maybe i sounded as if she's really gone alr...TOUCHWOOD! but she's still lying in Kuan Ming hospital.....

so random reflections: i don't like being emo...

hais...i donnno la...i just don like the present me now....like almost 3 days in a week...i'm behaving like so emo....if not i'm like feeling moody! what's happening huh? short temper also....ever since my grandma's incident? donno how come....or my grandma incident is just only an excuse? i don like being emo..it's irritating and nth comes out from it....i really hope my life will be like the past...as busy as i can be....whr there's no time for me to consider so much thingy! no troubles! all fun in sch! all fun i work! almost everytime a weird feeling will come and i feel nth good abt it....but i just can't figure out what is tt weird feeling about! and i donno what is it!

like some days ago...i just have tt strange feeling which i didnt know how to describe.....i suddenly have tt i have alot of misses...but i donno what are those misses....i miss ppl? i miss some things? i donno leh....just got tt very huai nian? just got tt xiang nian de gan jue....

see ppl? u figure out what i'm trying to say? i donno...haha..(= hais....

*我到底想干嘛?*

what is happening to me n my mum? hais!

YA IT'S ALL MY FAULT!!!

seriously these few days i donno y....my mum is like making me to hate her and she thinks tt i'm making things difficult for her and i'm turning worst and i know how to FLY!!!

today another thing happen again! cos of tt dog again! maybe is not cos of the dog but due to bias-ness towards the dog, i say today incident is cos of the dog again!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......!!!

this mrgn, my dad called me to help him pray the god as he's gg out for work.....den i woke up quick to help him cos i know i'm gg out very soon to meet cindy....so i woke up to bath and prepare all the stuff to pray...and when i came out from the bathroom....i saw bits of red thingy ard the sofa.....hais.....of course it's the dog again la! he went to the god's table there to take the candle and bite again!!! arrrggghhhhh!!! cos i have one god table is on the floor wan....wa.....i hit him...and get on with the other things.......i even on purpose go find whr's the candle and replace a new pair to pray.....i mean i can don do that...i can heck care and don replace the candles! after finish preparing everything, i light the candle before gg out....cos i'm like thinking if i don like the candle which is suppose for the praying...den y i pray? and i'm like thinking...the dog wun be so stupid to go near the candle when it's light up with fire right!? so i didnt put off the candle n went out!

cindy n i were at boon keng mrt station..we gg sentosa.....so i saw my mum's miss calll...so i sms her back saying i'm outside and told her wat the dog did.....so she called...and ask me did i light the candle n stuff..so i tell her everything...den she keep questioning whr m i.....i just tell her i'm at boon keng la....she's like asking n all y i didnt tell her n blah blah blah.....arrrgghhhh...i just let her nag whr my face is turning black...she make my mood turns......hais!

so i thgt tt's the end of this matter....

now back at hm....arrrggghhhh!!! she say me again...hey pls can u stop nagging! once u're back u nag! wat can u do beside nagging at me! i don wanna to call her n all to avoid the fire to start again...but she wants to start the fire....she nags at me abt mrgn issue again........after all her naggings i cant tahan...i just say ya it's my fault la...it's my fault! u always say till everything is my fault......so she said of course it's your fault....u always don wanaa to admit your fault!

den i just replied, ok so this mrgn issue i admit it's fault but tt dog thingy is not all my fault....so she goes again...the dog thing...is u don wan to keep the shoe inside the box wat....wa! i angry lor! TSSSSSSKKK!!! den she still got say wat....know how to FLY liao la...WA! again! come again liao lor....everytime she got nth to say den she start this FLY thingy again! ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! say wat go whr also no need tell me liao hor....blah blah blah....#$%&@!!!

wth! i just tell her next time u all wan do anything, do yourself...don call me do! den she say wat....this one not your hse meh....you don live here la....wa!!! ANGRY LOR!!! wtf! wth! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...!!!

it's always me! me la...ya me! i know how to FLY liao....yea ppl i know how to FLY!!!
wth....she say she's trying to explain to me the things....i know...but she don unstd my stand and she wants me to unstd! i unstd wat she's trying to say....but she don unstd wat i want...i just want her to unstd my stand and i just want fairness! i know whr's my fault...i don wan to admit cos i don think u're treating me fairly so i admit also no use!

i'm trying to tell you my stand but u're always putting me at blame so i think it's uselss to say anymore things! so i'll just shut up but ur naggings really irritates me! to me now i find gg out a hassle cos i've to inform u n all....i don like the feeling of being control....everywhr i go i've to report! i mean i'm not like those small kids....you don trust me! if you trust me you wun be like questioning me like as if i'm a criminal! i'm not like i go out to commit crimes! i know u're concern of me.....but.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

to me u're like always targetting on me..i donno....i'm at hm so it means i've to do everything? i didnt hang up the clothes cos i thgt my sister can hang it when she's back in the afternoon.....i did wan to woke up earlier to hang the clothes cos i thgt i can make it in time if there's no sudden matters like i've to help dad to pray.......but who knows this mrgn dad will call me help him pray ar!

i didnt inform u whr i'm gg cos u'll think i'm always running ard outside and u'll go there start nagging again....might say i keep gg outside....didnt stay at hm to help me do hsework blah blah blah......see what shld i do? ... ... ... ... did i step on her tail or wat? really lor...maybe i'm blinded by my own selfish-ness to want to protect and give excuses for myself tt's y i sounded so angry abt her and as if it's none of my fault....

ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!! ok i'm contridicting myself....

Npcc gathering? difficult..haha..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Yp6ubUgrtk

haha...i've got nth to do and went to look at this...haha..memories back again! LOL!!! i miss it! hehe...(= thinking of a gathering but it's difficult....haha..who wanna meet up? who wanna organise? lol...

Happy 19th Birthday to Vivi Ong!!!

k so the news of tt dog bite my shoe has travelled to all my aunties and uncles' ear....so all agreed to have it killed and hang its body outside my house door....if not i can have it bbq-ed! donno my grandma got hear these news anot when they talking abt it...went to visit her ytd.....donno y sudden sadness just fill my heart....which is like.....hais...sorry ppl i can't help it...seeing so many patients same as her lying there motionless makes one feel so depressing.........

redarding the dog issue....my bro surprisingly called me to buy a new pair and claim the money from him....i'm not gg to be so ke qi and wun buy...i'll BUY a new pair! but i wun want him to bare the full amount of the shoe...cos my sister is also one of the dog's owner...so i wan her to bare half of the amount also! i want her to know what is responsiblity of being of a pet's owner...it's not just always playing, running ard, hugging and carrying the dog...it's more than all these fun part k! what your dog had did, you have to be responsible for it cos as you said the dog cant' be responsible of it...like how? tt dog can spit out the rubber parts and i can paste it pieces by pieces like jigsaw puzzle back to my shoe? dreaming! u thgt i'm magician? or u thgt u're one?

i'm super angry when she keep saying who call me to put my shoe on the shoe rack, don wan to keep...HEY please! now it's not the problem if i put it on the shoe rack anot! is just that u've to be responsible of your dog's deed! you wan to keep the dog then be RESPONSIBLE of its action and deeds!!! just felt so unfair if they aren't gg to be responsible of the dog's deed....i can see that my bro knows what is responsiblity but hey ong hui yin this is what you shld learn long ago! what have u learn from guides? only playing flour and games and drills only? please do some reflection! k so at least i know never trust the dog again...i shld keep all my shoe regardless slipper or whatever type of shoe in the box!!! arrggghhh...

k end of this issue.....haha....to me i hate unfair-ness and i just don unstd y this world is just so unfair! like mr leong (my sec sch teacher) has always said.....there's is no fair-ness in the world!
but y? unfair-ness.....just don unstd y....causing so much hunhappiness cos of unfair-ness!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY VIVI ONG!!! 生日快乐!!!

this is the last year where your age will start with the digit '1' le! wahaha....soon it'll be felicia, kim bee, piwen, me then sandy tan...hahaha...

i H-A-T-E dog! i H-A-T-E qunicy!

I'M ANGRY!!! PPL I'M ANGRY!!!

not cos of any humans...but a BITCH!!! tt BITCH in my hse!!! she's like yao dio! we did not ill-treat her, we did gave her food! but seems like she's always and never feel full before!!! before...she bite my new buy shoess.....next she bite my chothing making holes all ard....next she played with tissues......now she BITE MY SHOE AGAIN!!! she bite broken my shoe! she bite broken tt NUM $49.90 pair of shoe!!!

#$^&%$#!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! arrrrrgggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i screamed loud in the living room! i screamed in my room!!! i bang all doors i'm able to...i throw vaccum cleaner while vaccuming the floor! i smsed shandi to vent anger......but nth helps!!! i smsed my mum to complain thinking she might an wei me......WTH! she doesn't!!!

my sms content:
your DEAREST FAVOURITE ALWAYS THGT VERY CUTE de dog...BITE SPOIL MY $49.90 SHOE! AHHHHHHH! i don wan tt dog! i HATE tt bitch!!! i don unstd y he's always so hungry like yao dio like tt always have to bite things! l8r is tissue make whole floor messy! l8r is my clothing! before tt is my shoe...now BACK TO MY SHOE AGAIN!
pls train the dog CAN!!! I HATE THE BITCH!!!!

she called...and i told her which pair....and she blamed me for not putting in the box...and put it in the shoe rack.....so i said so it's my fault la....and i hung up her call! minutes ltr she call my hp...i rejected the call! next she called hm...i don wanna ans but my sis picked up....

i ans and she blamed me for buying that shoe so ex.....at $49.90! y i buy tt shoe and blah blah blah...wth! i told her now it's not whether i buy the shoe anot...it's not i buy shoe anot! she say she know...she know her head! den she say can sew ma.....i said sew her head ar sew! she bite broken the front part leh....sew what pi! tt's rubber leh...how to sew!!!

i'm angry! i'm even more angry when my mum is like putting all blame on me!!! if shoe rack are not meant for putting shoe....den y is it call SHOE rack! u buy tt shoe rack don put shoe...den all shoes have to put in the boxes....den wan wear den take out....come back wear le...out back into box.......for wat? y so much trouble? just because we have to give in to tt BITCH!!!

ppl...i really HATE dogs!!! they're cute if they're fake and only appears in storybooks, cartoons, posters, pictures etc.....they are cute when they're disciplined and quiet and when they're sleeping! they're cute only when they're all of the above! my hse this dog's owner does nth but to spoil her....they doesn't train her at all! like what? they train her to go toilet to urine n shit? i doubt they had sucessfully trained the dog properly! cos she has been urinating ard the hse! shitting everywhr esp the kitchen!!! they didnt train her to be discipline! what they train her? quincy SIT....quincy STAND..... is this what you call training? u thgt u acting in drama ar! only need to train sit n stand!

because of this dog....she cause me to make such bias statement that i HATE dogs....
i so feel like calling my dad and complain...but i know is useless also! ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
i'm gg to get money from tt BITCH's 2 owner...my bro n sis...though i know my bro might not give me the money!

tt pair is i buy with my own earned money leh.....i bought it myself....one pair which i quite like also...and i wore it often too......and it's bite broken by tt #$%^&^&@ dog!!! i'm very angry with the dog...i so feel like killing the dog! my sis had locked her inside the balcony there....which i think is useless and doesn't help in solving my problem!
yes it's useful in the sense that....her dog wun be killed n beaten by me!!!!

i H-A-T-E DOG!!! i H-A-T-E quincy!!!

ah por in guan ming care centre...

grandma had moved into kuan ming care centre today....hospital had discharged her....she's not allowed to stay long in hospital where 3 months is the max....so i visited her in the evening...the place was alrite cos i had alr visited the place previously before she's being admitted here....but today when i went there where she's really there alr...i suddenly like feel so....cos the place is dark as in some part of the corridor...they didnt on the lights...den it's like so...eerrrr....

next....all the other patients in the same room as hers...were all lying there cant move abt de...with pipes in their nose...but luckily my grandma doesn't have...some were in coma....some with eyes opened but unable to see ppl....got a few also cos of accident tt's y become like tt...hais....everybody is like so poor thing....and they are to be sympathize.....see le is like so spoil mood...i'm not blaming them for the cause of mood being spoiled......but......it's just that..this kind of scene......see le also will make one feel so unhappy and upset....it's like so not motivated and will make one to be pessimistic....felt so sad and will uncontrollably think negatively!

(= haha.... .... (= i'm fine! (= just felt speechless...donno what can be done so that i can don be like tt...hais ......

Year 2.2 Final Exam Result

Exam Results for 0502257I

FunHTBus: D+
ORGCOM: B+
MLS: B
MNGINFO: A
PROCOI: B
MGSYSTA: C+
MODSIM: B+

RESULTS: GS

GPA: 2.94

i'm not very satisfied witht he results..esp HTM! TSK....first time my cds got A-less....#$%& zhangwei! tt idiotic teacher....gpa improved by 0.03 only...hais...sian... .....

Rangers' 1st Month Anniversary: Night cycling

Ranger’s Alumini Anniversary & Peizhen and Yaoqing’s 1mth anniversary!

[n the way to the underpass...]
Ok while writing above that heading I’m like quite paiseh and hesitating to write that…cos the word ‘ranger’ is like…..eerrwww…ahhaha….like some last time childhood show ‘ CO CO POWER RANGER!’ wahahaha….

[The girls!!! (=]

[The couple: Yaoqing & Peizhen]

[wahaha...nobody's leg is bigger than his!]

[Pirated Ronald MnDonald's in Blue!]

So we had 12/2/07 as our anniversary and it’s also when the couple started their unique relationship…..hahaha…we had night cycling, our rangers’ second gathering! Haha…but too bad angel’s unable to join us…so we had a total of 7 ppl…Jordan, mindy, pei zhen, yao qing, felicia and me! We rent the bike with merely $5 only for overnight! So cheap! Haha…so we gather at mac before setting off with our night cycling…cos Jordan has to send his friend off first….but in the end we meet him at parkway parade….

First Stop: 星仔臭豆腐店, Hongkong Smelly Toufu Shop 11:50pm
So off we set off at ard 11? we had smthg like 十字路口! After passing by mountbatten rd, tanjong katong and paya lebar, we reach our first stop at geylang’s 星仔臭豆腐店,the hongkong smelly toufu shop! first time trying smelly toufu…nto bad leh…don have very smelly….nice…but the skin too thick le…..not much toufu….other than toufu we ordered fried intestines, 猪肠 and duck biscuits, 鸭饼…I like the duck biscuits and esp the intestines! Hahahaha….
Hey sandy n cliques I know what you all are thinking right! Wahahahaha….

Jordan like asking those 'what if-' type of questions….i don unstd why he’s a guy and will ask so much abt 'what if-' questions….haha…and I still seriously ans all his question and mindy was laughing at me…cos she think I don have to ans his question and I’m still so serious in my answering…hahaha….cos if I don’t entertain him, then there’ll be nobody entertaining him le leh MINDY TAN! Wahaha…

[The du yi wu er, zhi chi yi jia smelly toufu shop!]

We met this china guy in long hair tied up...he claimed that he's photographer and he helped us to take the photos outside this fashion...

[The rangers: jordan, yoaqing, peizhen, huiqin, felicia, mindy! angel not in picture...)= haha..]

Second Stop: 永和豆花店,Yong He Eating House 00:30am
After eating, we proceed to geylang lorong 9, i think…hahaha…had soya bean drink 豆花水, soya beancurd 豆花, you cha quek 油条and mee sua 面线! hahahahah…wa full! My stomach cannot allow anymore food inside le after only eating not even half the bowl of the tao huay…we had a recording there to intro the tao huay…it’ll be shown on ranger channel on ……. at 8pm! 请锁定哦! Hahahahaha….lame….we had a lame video…but I don’t think I’ll upload it here…haha…
[OysterMeeSua!]

[hmm...yum yum..crispy you tiao! ]

Third Stop: Kallang Stadium 01:30am
Proceed to Kallang stadium passing by the whole geylang road and nicoll highway…saw alot of places…then I was like….oh so this thing was at here…..haha…the road is like so quiet and had little vehicles…so we were riding on the road but we do look out for traffic, police and oncoming vehicles wan k! hahaha…
[outside kallang stadium that road!]

Reached kallang outdoor stadium and took photos….lol…then we proceed riding on to see where it can lead us to….so we rode to indoor stadium there de bridge! The television always had there acting done there de…haha…we laugh like ah siao while taking photo there….funny! after that, we sat down n slack…sing song…lol….with jordan’s handphone provide de…hahah..video recorded…omg so 难听! It’s not advisable for others to listen to it with the highest possible chance of causing deaf and phobia in you! Hahaha…

[slacking on the bridge]


[休息是为了走跟长的路!]


[hey we tried this alot of times k! bt we still failed to make a good wan!]

[wow...sweet sweet huh? hahaha..]

Fourth Stop: Kallang Stadium Drive-thru McDonald’s 02:45am
Had a short break there…went toilet and wash our face and all..haha…a short stop only la…

Fifth Stop: Esplanade 03:00++
Wa…this trip there was tiring but as compared to the later trip..this was maa-maa only…I mean so so only…haha…we pass by a lot of construction sites and roads of course…..our bike created a lot of noise in this silent night….cos we kept passing by alot of drains coer..then it goes like ki ko ki ko ki ko….hahaha….

[Marina Square tt flight of stairs!]
we passby suntec, marina square and reached esplanade…we were like anyhow crossing the junction at suntec there….there’s this big junction, 十字路! It’s fun and dangerous….
We rested at esplanande by the river there and chatted….while Jordan took a nap….tt couple own world themselves…mindy Felicia and I talk and talk…till they two wan to sleep….so I went to walk ard to see got anything nice anot..haha….nth nice…hahaha…

By the way, there's this ah pek who also slept near us....he farted in his dreams! bth! jordan n i heard the 'booop' sound! haha...luckily don have the smell! hahaha...

So when I walk back to find them…Felicia aren’t asleep and mindy woke up too….haha…so I suggested climbing into the locked bridge at the front….the bridge where ppl wants to ride the wat river taxi to tour the river de…it’s locked wan….so I climbed in first quietly and secretly…so as not to create too much noise and alert 2 guards at the front there..hahaha…followed by Felicia and mindy…ahahha…we are laughing like hell there….then we deicided to move further into the bridge….felicia said she wanted to fart...so i suggested her to go put her butt facing the ah pek face to fart and flee as fast as she can to prevent letting tt ah pek to notice her...wahahaha..and we botht were laughing like hell just because of my nonsense comment...wahahaha...of course we aren't tt bad to really go do tt! we don wanna to spoil his sweet dreams while farting away! haha..
[see the sign: No Unauthorised Access!]

den Felicia say the guards are coming and we (mindy and i) kana shocked and turn to look…but they didn’t walk over but they keep looking at our direction….hahaha…then both mindy and I needless to say anything…we both 不约而同just lie on the bridge…thinking that we’re skinny enough that the border of the bridge can cover us! Wahahahha….we really lie flat down k! ahahha….where’s Felicia right….she’s even worst…she thgt she’s small size enough that she can hide behind the lifebuoy! Hahaha….i think she’s blurred enough that she had forgotten that a lifebuoy has a round cirle hollow at the middle! Hahaha…so however she hides, she’ll still be seen! Hahaha…

[MINDY TAN & huiqin!]

[US: Felicia, Mindy, Huiqin!!!]

[That's the life bouy where felicia thgt she could hode behind safely w/o being noticed!]

[Felicia & huiqin!]

Then after calming ourselves down whr we stopped laughing and quickly get up and get out of the bridge…haha…so xia suay! Den we walked back and I looked from the guards’ direction towards the bridge….omg…we’re really so stupid….from the direction…however we hide, we still can be seen! Wahaha…we’re so embarrassed…..hahaha…cos the guard keep looking! They must be thinking that we’re stupid…thought can hide ourselves…hahahaha…

So we quickly ride on our bike and leave the place! Wahaha...
[slacking and lying ard beside the river in front of esplanande]

[further up is where tt ah pek slept...he farted in his dreams and we heard it!]

Last Stop: East Coast Park 06:00
We left esplanade at ard 04:00….we rode back to esplanade passing the ecp highway~! Wa…the highway is steep de lor! We had to pushed our bike instead of riding on it….my leg was like breaking la! Haha…then when getting down slope till the end of the highway…..you know what….we see a flight of steep stairs! …. So we had to push our bike slowly down the stairs...we are now below the highway where it’s like quite eeerrrr…..with trees all ard only…haha…so we quickly ride out of the place and to the main road where all the condos are on the reclaimed land…..

Passing by Di Tanjong Katong, Mountbatten Rd, ….. and finally we reached parkway parade shopping mall! Haha..we rested outside the Marine Parade Promenade there…while jordan and yaoqing went toilet and we gals waited there….

[Marina Parade Promenade]

we continued riding back to east coast park…while riding back through the underpass….felicia’s bike’s basket flew out and all her things in the bike are lying ard….hahaha…cos she rode too fast and she didn’t notice the hump and her basket flew out! Wahaha…we aren’t suppose to ride at the underpass! Lol…and we reached the mac at 6am…haha…so we parked our bike outside…

Oh ya…for every stop where we’ve to park our bike…We have a bicycle parker at every stop we go….no not ktv or any pub place…..is just those coffee shop….haha….tt person is Felicia! Haha…I really suspect her previous job is at those bicycle shop, parking those bicycle nicely….hahaha…

We had our early breakfast at McDonald’s….the food is not very up to standard….i didn’t know why…maybe cos too early…no mood to cook? They didn’t have hashbrown and got replaced by gold coins…..not nice wan lor the gold coins….Haha…actually mine food was alright…Jordan had lotsa of complaints…his burger was not hot, the gold coin was cold like overnight food! Haha…As for mindy her burger was hard like rock…can take n throw ppl lor! Haha…I have no appetite…so I ate my burger v slowly and didn’t finish my gold coin…

At this period, my mind was like cuckoo already…cos Felicia and I were laughing like ah siao…..though nth was funny! Only the both of us like that…peizhen was too tired to talk and yaoqing…haha…ok stick to peizhen…mindy and Jordan were complaining abt their food…haha..

At ard 7++….we took the bike back to the shop while jordan went off first….ltr mindy, peizhen and yaoqing also go hm first…left the both of us…we then sat outside the shop and talk….we then park our bike properly outside the shop and went to the stone by the beach to sit…..so we talked till 8.59…and went back to the shop and return the bikes and we quickly walk out to the main road and took a cab hm! Haha…
[felicia, mindy & huiqin outside the roller blade shop and beside the bicycle shop!]

[slacking outside the bicycle shop!] [wahaha..like the police had just raided the place and caught this two on lying there!]

next outing: bangkok trip? haha...hope it'll really occur! haha...

sudden emo-ness

sudden emo-ness...sudden bad mood... )=

by the way, shandi i miss you!!! quick get in contact with us?

tml nite, night cycling with mindy they all.....
tml mrgn, meeting with the juniors...sian lazy to go...(=
tml afternoon, ....

k just another random one to comment on my sudden feelings....haha....

*any job lobang? looking for part-time job...(=

08/03/07 sushi tei

ytd nite...had dinner at sushi tei at vivo....actual plan was marche but marche had their official opening ytd so outsiders are not allow! )= so we had sushi tei...spent a total of $140 with 5 1/2 person's stomach...haha...cos felicia vegetarian ma...so limited things to eat.....

ate v full and had fun...we had a surprise advance birthday celebration for vivi and also a short BWP video...LOL....so funny...wahaha....

but i'm feeling quite weird....i mean i've this weird feeling.....suddenly have this feeling of i miss alot of ppl or things.......but i donno what exactly i miss...maybe i just miss my grandma, or somebody or cos sandy's leaving the next day so she bu de ba?

weird weird de....??? don really like this kind of feeling...cos i'm not sure what i want....hate this kind of confusing and unknown feeling!!! arrrggghhh....TSK! angry lor! hahaha...(=

bon voyage sandy tan! 9/3

just got back from airport....sandy is on the plane now.....sad but all didnt cry...wahaha...we went to have mac ltr....went t2 by the monorail......then there's so many little kids....kindergarden wan..is alot of classes lor....we took the monorail with them and they're so excited abt travelling on the monorail.....whenever the monorail moves a little bit faster and they'll go ' WOOOOOOOOO' together! omg so loud and noisy...wahaha....suddenly felt so excited abt travelling on monorail...hahaha....

the kids also went to mac and eat! but these are primary sch kids (from geyleng medodist)....wa instantly, mac become geylang medodist primary school canteen! children are all ard! running here and there! omg...hahaha...then felicia and i were at there asking alot abt kumamoto trip with max...omg i so feel like gg!!! i miss them (the jappies)! hope tt guy wun be able to go cos kana sup paper!!! wahaha....so wun throw singaporean's face! though it's bad la...but i've to ku da ju.....hahaha...

took bus 27 hm.....and now at hm msn-ing with cindy...discussing whr to go ltr...hahaha...

few weeks ltr, we might be gg airport to send ppl off again...vivi n kim bee and maybe next my classmates ramli they alll.....ahhhhh...my turn is like still months away??? so feel like gg shanghai now...ahha....

i wan to watch protege!

monday:
spent whole day with sandy tan....wasn't feeling very good tt day....erm....can say 心不在焉...didnt manage to get anything...i mean clothings...

tuesday:
afternoon at hm slacking....late evening went to hougang tt guang wat de care centre to explore...so most probably she'll be staying when she's ready for discharge...)'=
had dinner with family at ard 406 there.....cos bro's birthday....

wednesday:
did some assigned housework by my mum...and went out to do smthg meaningful.....haha....late night watching hua yang on youtube....bored...gg to sleep soon.... nitex ppl! (=

i so want to watch protege.....门徒!!!

but vivi they all watched le if not is not interested in tt show! )=

confess?

ytd i brought my sis and 2 cousin to taka for pepper lunch and bought a shirt for my bro...his b'day is tml....i like tt shirt! haha....

today woke up at 9am...ate few mouth of the bee hoon my mum bought for me.....helped her to dye her hair, watched tv while folding that mountain basket of clothing.....

went to PS to meet sandy after bathing....went novena square.....i think i remembered someone working there previously and said it's renovating right? if i didnt rmb wrongly....so not bad la..quite alot of things....got alot of those sports apparrel shops...like nike, adidas, new balance and those outdoor stuff.....eg. flash and splash or surf rider i forgot..haha..

went vivo next....shopped ard...but i didnt manage to see anything i like so bought nth...dot....my purpose of coming out is thgt of buying clothes...but in the empty handed hm..haha...ate marche and proceed to daiso.....in the end we found out tt daiso having DND and closed at 5pm today.....den we both were like...HUH...we wasted our time to travel all the way here...haha..cos sandy actually can buy her stuff from PS's daiso but we purposely wait till come vivo den buy..haha...in the end this happen.....nvm we are gg vivo this thurs again...haha...bringing felicia to marche n dine....

went to funan mall to get sandy's laptop bag.....slack at tcc after that....i brought up topic abt confession....and so we chatted..and conclusion for me....confession after might work out? it's not as bad as i thgt...lol...haha...

chatted wif ann poh on the bus way hm.....reached hm still chatting...haha...

a narrow escape for her....

A narrow escape for her and almost another heart attack for all of us……..
2months and 1 day...

......

I can’t bear to let you go…….i thinks it’s time where we all should start to try to learn very hard to accept this fact…

What the hell is that bastard or bitch family doing now? I so feel like gg up to them, scold and bash them up hard! Let them know how they have seriously hurt us emotionally and my grandma physically and emotionally! They had really changed out life in the wrong way…..

Although we all had family dinner together ytd after visiting her…..we should feel happy and blessed if nth happens before 2nd of January…….ytd we had 2 tables….children one table and adults another………i donno why i'll automatically stand up to help serve all my cousins........maybe cos i'm the elderest among them excluding my bro there........as usual the dishes were all cleared without fail.....but i know that behind these 2 tables people's mind, worries for her are constantly hanging strongly there behind......behind all these happy faces who are enjoying the dinner......

another worry:

i donno what's gg to happen to him if we were to let him know exactly and totally what is gg on here........pls don let another to fall.......pls..........

我好舍不得你! )'=

i'm guilty of....)'=

Dated: 02-03-07

Gals now I know what I should be guilty about regarding ytd truth question in the chalet…..

I should guilty that I didn’t visit my grandma ytd…always only have the thgt of missing her but action is not shown…I didn’t visit her….during study week too…though in words I use the excuse of need to study for the papers at hm so I didn’t go visit her….but in the end I stayed at home enjoy watching TV programmes…..ytd she was in good condition but today her condition because of some unknown reason deteriorates….past 2 days, she was improving and nurses even put her sit on the chair (she’s still semi-unconscious) so she wun be always lying on the bed….her urine bag and most of the pipes are gone….but today her condition just deteriorates! What am I doing when she’s sitting on the chair when her condition is improving? I’m watching tv at hm during the exams period, after the last paper…instead of visiting her in the hospital….i wasted my time sitting at café cartel eating dinner and just to chat with friends…………

Currently right now when I’m typing all these and hours before that…I’m feeling not very well…..not in the mood for anything…my mind is invaded by a lot of WHY(s)…..

I keep questioning myself:……

Why is this happening to her? Why she has to suffer so much? Why can’t just let her recover fast and easily? Why must make her go through so much pain and poking of needles and pipes everywhere on her body? Why must you always pull her down like a wet blanket whenever she’s showing some slight improvement in her condition? Why you give us the hope showing us her improvement when she’s going to deteriorate the next day? Why everything just seems so unfair to her? Why doctors are so cruel and inflexible, when she’s not v fine and not in stable condition, you ppl, the hospital wants to chase her out, that she can’t stay long in the hospital and have to move to care centre? Can you confirm that she will get the SAME or maybe at least 99.9% of the best treatment she can get from hospital in the care centre? Why doctors didn’t take good care of her? Why we can’t help her in anything? Why are we so helpless and useless? Why out of so many ppl, my ah por has to be the victim of this accident?! Why must that idiotic bastard or bitchy driver drive on that particular road at that particular time? Why this idiotic bastard or bitchy driver’s carelessness just take place at that particular time?! Why must ah por cross that road at that time? Why didn’t I visit her ytd? Why praying and non-stop praying just doesn’t help much? Why? …….. Why? Why? WHY?!

I miss her so much….ytd nite at the chalet i just miss her as much as today….but I just didn’t go visit her! I now desperately am asking every one of you to help pray for my grandma!!! I can’t help it but just to worry and start to be afraid…..sometimes crossing the road now seems to be kind of phobia……sometimes I’ll see the road so quiet and clear of no vehicles moving on it….i’m so afraid that half way while crossing the road, a vehicle just speed out from no where and…..BOOOOM…..there goes another victim……

I dreamt of you successfully opening your eyes, stretching your legs onto the floor, walking, moving around, and opening your long-time never open de mouth to communicate with us…..i so hope all these were real and were never a dream! )=
I so feel like hugging you! I miss your cooking! I never hold your hand again after I have grown up, but now I’ll always hold your hand like when you hold mine when I’m small….and I so hope that you will hold my hand tightly back! …….. )'=

Time Ended: 23:56pm

sandy's chalet...

Shan Di's Farewell chalet

haha..actually it's more of just a gathering for all her close friends la...and i've to be half of this host for this chalet...i cant stay inside the oom wif jieyi they all to discuss tings..)= played card games....see ppl play mahjong den my turn to play! wahaha..waiting for very long liao..lol...but donno y played 2 rounds i don feel like playing le..haha..so i didnt play...they playing blackjack...i als..i played 2-4 rounds den i quit liao...and what i do? i eat! wahaha..go take food and settle in front of the tv..haha...i so enjoy sitting there munching food..haha...slowly felicia then jieyi then vivi came to join me! haha...

late night after most of them go hm liao hor...we gals, jieyi shandi felicia vivi kim bee shermaine and me chit chatted the whole midnight....before tt i went out with shandi to 7-11 to buy a packet of lays and my mineral water...and i bought a can of beer cos so feel ike drinking..haha..CNY always see my ah pa drink..den i don dare in front of so many ppl ask for a drink also..haha...cos girl asking for beer to drink is like so wat...haha..so while walking back, i drink...hehe...so nice...

back there, my face become red again....den they still play at i never ever this game...den have to drink either green tea mixed with absolute vodka or cola with absolute vodka...so i scare ltr mambo so i drink from per mouth to per sip..wahaha..cos donno y i keep kana and have to drink...

i so feel like sleeping..i enjoy after drinking tt feeling and go st to sleep...it's v comfortable..cos u'll fall asleep soon...and wun like at there lying on the bed turn here n there..haha...at ard 5 or 6am...they then decided to go into the room and lie on bed to chat...haha..finally! cos previously we're sitting in tt round table...den my seat though v comfortable but i just so feel like lying on the bed and cover myself with blanket..cos very cold sittng there!!! ... haha..so vivi kimbee felicia and i squeeze 2 single bed (joined together wan)...chatting..most of the time is vivi and i talking...about what? NPCC!!! wahahahaha...i donno what we talk abt and link to NPCC....oh i know le...previously i'm talking abt takaewondo....and shit it reminds me of my guilty behaviour tt time in yr1.1!!! arrrggghhhh....

slept the last hr to check out...from 8-9...haha...took cab hm and pom lie on bed and sleep till 3pm..wahaha....cos of stomach cramp! pms la! @#$% but a nice sleep! hehe..(=

weird dream again!

yea start of holiday again! haha..went cafe cartel to eat ytd after paper...

ytd nite i dreamt abt smthg which is very scary whr i cry when i wake up from the dream...i was with my mum at hospital visiting my grandma...so suddenly she can talk and even walk ard....i could see clearly in the dream how skinny she has become la...haha...ok so i was so happy crying while hugging her...hahaha...i so hope tt was not just a dream and it's true! .... so next my mum and i donno go whr...den till very late nite whr visiting hours had past...we return to hospital wif my dad and siblings....i cant figure out y so late we're still gg there....the mood at tt time was happy la....cos i even joke wif my mum...and i was playing wif the automatic sensor sliding door...cos the sensor got abit retarded..unable to sense the ppl and open fast...

so we were waiting for the lifts up...den met this lady in front....weird is that there's a queue to wait for the lift...i mean there's those in the bank those rubber stretchable divider.....so we were queuing behind her..finally the lift come, she thgt of using the lift herself and have no intention to let us in.....of course i didnt...i just quickly went in with my famil following behind...haha...i even say to her y only u can use the lift....LOL...the whole system is like so weird....the system is like, every lift that come can only occupied by one person...and it's base on the first come first basis as seen from the queuing part....WEIRD right! haha...

so we didnt bother abt her and went into the lift....i even pressed the button '6' cos my grandma's ward is on level6.....so when reach level6...everyone go out of lift....the whole place of the hospital of level6 like went under renovation like that...so different...it's dark...i mean the lights are white lightings and it's dim with smoky smoky scene.....eerrrwww....so there's 3 doors and we cant find whr's the ward....and i open one of the door and see 24...den i just say i'ts here....haha...though my grandma's ward is 46....see...everything so not right...so we go into te door...den have to take some stairs down like to some secret underground passage way.....

fianlly we reached...and i saw my small cousin standing in front of some pull out cupboard and cry! omg...the pull out thingy is metal and like those put dead ppl wan! !!! i quickly run over and see my 3rduncle wearing his usual orange shirt lying inside...omg....i cry till siao la! so scary and sad...den i look over the other side..i saw ard 4 more bodies! but not in that metal thingy...they're my 3rd auntie, and my smallest uncle and his wife.....they went wat bangkok den met wif accident.....i donno what this whole thing is abt....but it seems so scary.....

it's like my grandma had recovered den some of my relatives gone...omg so scary...den donno wat happen i just woke up from the dream...still in very mi mi hu hu de state....den thinking of the dream i made just now....i started crying! really sad de cry....den when wan to go back to sleep....it just bring me back to the dream scene whr i've just stopped! wa xia si wo!

xia si ren...donno why i'll dream of all this weird thingy....scary!!! choi choi choi! touchwood!!!